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February 10, 2019



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  1. February 10, 2019 11:13 pm


  2. night arrant permalink
    February 10, 2019 11:56 pm

    he lives for this shit. crazy.

  3. February 11, 2019 3:20 am


    Probably obvious in retrospect but seeing as Zak’s detractors and Zak deserve each other, it is still mildly jarring to see either side proven right.

  4. February 11, 2019 7:14 am

    Zak’s followers are now like Thulsa Doom’s hippies, casting their torches into the pool and shuffling off into an uncertain future.

  5. Aos permalink
    February 11, 2019 7:26 am

    Good work ydis.

    • February 11, 2019 8:40 am

      Wasn’t me, just happened to catch it before it got reverted.

      • Aos permalink
        February 11, 2019 8:49 am

        Just posting about it was good work. The blogshpere is pretty quiet about this- as everyone tries to figure out how to spin their way out of assocaition with him.

  6. February 11, 2019 7:46 am

    Please feel free to share this widely, on
    any platform you have.

    Dear Zak Smith, aka Zak Sabbath

    I know posting anything about you or this publicly will get me labeled “angry”, “crazy” or a “liar”. Despite that, I still need to speak. As a warning, there will be potentially triggering descriptions of abuse, violence and sexual assault to follow.

    What I want to convey is my grief. And my shame. There is so much of it. I think when women come forward to talk about their abusers people strip them of their grief. And I am not okay. And I should be angry but I can’t be because the shame is too great. Because the abuse had me taking responsibility for everything and it’s very difficult to stop that after all these years. Everything was always my fault, the problem was me–but it wasn’t.

    Eleven years is a long time. I was twenty one when we met in person the first time, and a month later, 22 when I moved in with you. It’s difficult to organize my thoughts about everything that happened, everything that went wrong over a decade.The abuse came in cycles where there were times you seemed to idolize me (in hindsight there was a twisted, sexist, infantilizing angle to the “idolizing” because it was always about my body and not me as a person). There were other times when you tore me down, made lectures that went in circles of manipulation, or fits of rage where you’d scream that I was useless and worthless and slam doors or throw things at the walls. You tore me down to manipulate me, and to get your way.

    As time went on you learned you could threaten me in various ways. Killing me if I ever got pregnant and didn’t have an abortion started as a joke but you repeated it so frequently it was clearly a warning. Kick me out if I didn’t want to have as much sex, or lesser reasons.

    When we would go out, you would rate the women you were watching, making sure I could hear it. You would see a woman and comment that she was attractive, until you saw she had “small” breasts. Then you would say to me “why do they even make them like that? What’s the point?” As though I automatically would agree with you about a woman’s worth being dictated by the size of her breasts. And how was that supposed to make me feel about myself? You would know that I would not want to start an argument on a nice evening out–finally I was feeling well enough to be out with you and I would ruin it? No. Even in the face of rude or disgusting comments about other women I would stay silent.

    I am ashamed. I was often silent because I wanted to keep the peace. To keep you happy. You see, I did know how to make you happy. I am ashamed I did it because I rationalized that was love. You pressured me to find and groom other women sexually. As I grew sicker, and my physical limitations grew, you were more concerned with your own needs than my illness. Eventually, even, you took my doing this for you, and me, for granted.

    I saw you mistreat women we were with together, and again I was silent. I choose you over them and I am deeply ashamed. And when it was me who was being mistreated I often didn’t even register it as such because the first time it happened was so traumatic. You told me I wasn’t allowed to stop or say no to sex or fooling around if we’d already initiated it.

    I was young and this was during the first few weeks we lived together and no one had ever taught me about consent. You were extraordinarily angry I had stopped, your hands were clenched into fists and they were shaking. I was programmed to accept it, and you always just kept telling me you loved me even if your behaviour never really proved it.

    Then you started with the online gaming arguments nonsense, and that put a real crack in our bond. In the beginning I felt genuinely protective of you, my provider, and of course that was my very strong trauma bond. I didn’t know better, and I just thought I was caring for the person I loved. Callously, you exposed me to death and rape threats and you then never took the distress this caused me seriously, you were in no way sympathetic to the very real stress these disagreements caused. You enjoyed it. And you gloated over the harm you caused other people. (It was extremely unattractive.) You just used those threats we received as an excuse, used me and my marginalized identities as shields in your continuing misbehaviour online.

    That Tumblr post defending you was posted in my name, but you were the one who wrote it. The long one you always referred people to. I feel more shame that I let you use my name, my identity in that way. I feel shame that when people noticed it probably wasn’t written by me, we called them sexist. After that Tumblr post I told you I was done being involved in any of your arguments online. You really didn’t like that. You forever afterwards accused me of “never saying anything” when you were dealing with the shit you’d stirred up.

    I am so ashamed you let me get dragged into your awful trolling behaviour. One time you had a screaming/throwing fit at me (“useless,” “worthless,” “no one cares about me”) because I didn’t want to retweet something to a big gaming company you were mad at. This was all abuse. That you continue to behave so badly online disgusts me, and I am ashamed that I helped you to hurt or damage others online. I am sorry that I have contributed to the abuse, and I am ashamed that your abuse pushed me to think that it was okay to do.

    This behavior is what created the cracks in the narcissistic façade that you built up for me. Seeing the behavior that you normally directed towards me being directed towards others started to open my eyes towards what you were doing to me.

    It was then that I slowly began to reassess how you treated me. This process started very slowly as I was extremely ill. And needed to focus on my health and I couldn’t shake my life up too dramatically.

    Over the next two or three years my faith and trust in you completely failed. You let me down over and over. And I came to terms with the fact that I had been a trophy wife all along, an object that was owned, not a respected or loved partner. Towards the end you weren’t even trying to keep that mask you wore in the beginning on you were just straight up cruel and cold and abusive and there were no reprieves of loving or sweet acts, it was all gaslighting and narcissism gone unchecked. And there was a lot of my grief and shame at that time. Because I tried so hard to make it work anyway.

    I thought if I loved harder, if I loved more I could save us but it was futile because you were already done with someone who wasn’t spending all their energy on living to please you as I’d formerly done.
    I’ve grown up. I want to live my life for me. My values and morales don’t align with yours–I’m ashamed I was complicit in your misogyny and supportive of your online abuse (whatever my reasons).

    I only began to register the pain and damage done to me by this relationship in the last year we were together and in the year and half since I’ve left. I have PTSD. I am doing my best to focus on healing, and since leaving both my mental and physical health have improved. I’m not okay yet, but I am improved. People can see the difference in photos. Rebuilding a life after a decade of trauma takes time but I will get there.

    After this I am including statements about Zak from Jennifer, a long time friend and lover of Zak’s and mine and Hannah who was also involved with us and lived with us briefly. Jennifer was spending time with Zak before Zak and I met, and Hannah was assaulted by Zak.

    CW description of sexual assualt

    Jennifer’s post was originally posted to her facebook and she’s given me permission to reshare it here:

    Hey guys, this is a heads up for anyone who is friends with Zak Smith or likes his page. This is somewhat out of the blue but he’s been posting more in the past year or so and I keep seeing some of you interact with him or just liking his posts, and thinking: You wouldn’t be doing that if you knew him better.

    To get to the point: While he comes across as a fun person who is super cool with everything and leads such a compelling and interesting life, and I considered him a good friend for a significant amount of time, he’s also someone who has habitually abused and assaulted women. He talks negatively about them when they’re not around, and also says really degrading things to their faces. He will aggressively pursue sex and rely on the fact that most women are hesitant to reject a man in a quasi-sexual situation due to safety concerns and social conditioning. Especially when he has presented himself as caring and trustworthy. But I’ve also seen him physically take women and start fucking them, ignoring their lack of enthusiasm or freeze of shock. He will navigate kink spaces and take someone’s presence there, of general involvement in bdsm as implied consent to assualt them. And he is fully aware of what he does, he has described a sexual encounter to me as, I quote, “raping a 12-year-old”. The person in question was not underage, but so massively uncomfortable that this was his most apt description. It didn’t make him stop.

    He’s really good at being so blasé about everthing that you doubt what happened or compartmentalize it, then move on. He’s also good at talking the talk and walking the walk of being the progressive liberal artist and author who is just so open about having done porn and living his sexuality uninhibited by social norms or whatever. He can be pretty manipulative and resorts to gaslighting.

    This post might seem unnecessary at best, and like slander at worst. Especially considering I haven’t even personally seen him since god knows when. It’s based on my own experiences with him, some dating as far back as 2005, and the fact that almost every mutual female friend has similar experiences, up to this day. Ultimately I’ve seen him do so much fucked up shit that when I hear anything by another woman I immediately believe them without a shadow of a doubt. And yes, I’m ashamed I didn’t speak up sooner. Often things only start falling into place after time passes and you see things for what they are, and when they are confirmed by others who have had similar experiences. By the time I really fully grasped the magnitude, being vocal would have meant intruding on and hurting people who didn’t deserve it, with little discernable good to come out of it.

    Basically if you know me and trust me, believe me and maybe reconsider your support of him and his art. Besides that I’m not asking you to do anything. And I don’t benefit from any sort of outcome in any way.

    I’m posting this to a curated audience; if you see this I trust you to at least not create drama. If you don’t believe me, I guess just ignore this post? Although I’d prefer if you removed yourself from my list then too. I don’t want this to reach him because I don’t want to deal with the fallout. I want people to know this to make a better informed decision about who they associate with. The last I heard of him was a few months ago, after he saw that a friend had confided in me about him, and he slid into my inbox with some disingenious bullshit about how sad he was about that situation, trying to influence my opinion. I ignored it. If something like that happens again I will obviously know that someone on this list blabbed and will pretty much delete and block anyone it could have been. Please don’t make me deal with all that trouble. Thank you.

    And here is Hannah’s account:

    Back when I first knew them, I lauded Manda and Zak as a perfect couple. I would see them only once every few years, and when I was with them, they seemed happy. It wasn’t until I was with them for an extended period of time that I thought things seemed off. I used to take Zak’s general demeanor towards women as joking. Eg, “if I talk to my girlfriend and her friend about their feelings, will I get a threesome out of it?” But now I think that’s how Zak actually feels. At first when I kept hearing him say the phrase “chin up” to Manda, I thought he was just telling her to stay positive, but in actuality he didn’t like it when she had a tiny double chin when looking down. (Like all humans at that angle.) He also told her things like “You don’t need glasses, its more important for you to be pretty than it is to see” and “If you can’t even have sex, what good are you?” It was not a joke. For a long time I tried to see the good in him, and hoped that he would change his behaviours once Manda confronted him about them, but he didn’t seem to understand that he had done anything wrong. She told him she felt more like a doll than a human, outlined what things had upset her, and wanted to work towards a better relationship. He acted ignorant about things he had said or done, and then threatened people when anyone talked about him. (Which is why I was afraid to write this for a long time. I still am.) There was also a strange incident when we were first hanging out together during which he asked if I was into kinky stuff, to which I replied yes. He proceeded to slap me and choke me against a wall, in public. Now, in a bedroom setting, with clear boundaries and consent, it would have been fine, but out of the blue and in public, it was not okay at all. Years later, I mentioned this to a mutual friend as something that made my uncomfortable, and when Zak found out he made a half-hearted apology attempt. I don’t think he actually felt bad, I think he just didn’t want me to tell anyone else. I tried to stay friends with both of them for a little while, but after hearing more about what he said/did to Manda, I couldn’t keep him in my life anymore. She is one of my best friends and one of the sweetest people I know. I don’t understand people who say they “can’t take sides” on something like this.

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  8. Lamentations of Gary Gygax’s Ghost permalink
    February 11, 2019 8:53 am

    Well, at least we can rest assured his Patrepn will keep chugging along and keeping Zpastic in copious amounts of crank to fuel his flailing at fighting this ‘harassment’ from a known ‘liar’.

  9. Drake Tungsten permalink
    February 11, 2019 9:51 am

    Wait, you mean to tell me that druggie porn actors aren’t cool role models and are actually mentally disturbed assholes? I’m shocked.

  10. Hehaw permalink
    February 11, 2019 10:40 am

    Finally, the chickens have come home to the coop.

  11. Franky Panky permalink
    February 11, 2019 11:33 am

    Zak/Langouste now? Does he have one of those weird boiled alive fetishes? If so, he may be about to live it out.

    The rats are deserting him… Here’s dear old Witchy-poo ximself, Tammy S. Brannon, “Damn. I am sorry this happened and it does take a lot of strength to come forward like this. I believe you and your friends. I am also sorry for the support I have given Zak in the past.”

    It does appear that all of the OSR *luminaries* have come out in to ‘signal’ their support, even the treacherous Fair Jessica. “I believe you. Oh, and if you need help getting through the torrent of abuse that’s inevitably going to come your way for going public with this, I have people who can help.”

    A nice little bonfire to keep all warm this winter. Who’s bringing the marshmallows? I can bring some Day Olds.

  12. Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
    February 11, 2019 11:41 am

    Joke Woke Bloke

  13. Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
    February 11, 2019 11:51 am

    StuPat weighs in:

    Here’s me putting together a history of his dealings with RPG.NET and other culture war issues. RPG.NET didn’t like that, I think because it made them look crazy

    No, dumbass, it made you look crazy. You were trying to gaslight people who knew Zak’s true nature better than you did.

    • February 11, 2019 2:49 pm

      I think StuPat and everyone else that associated with Zak knew EXACTLY what kind of person he is. They just didn’t want to say anything because it was to their benefit. They’re only coming out now and disavowing him because it’s fashionable, there’s nothing to gain by associating with him anymore. If Mandy hadn’t stepped up? It’d be business as usual.

      • Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
        February 11, 2019 3:39 pm

        I said it before, and I’ll say it again: THE SPICE MUST FLOW!

      • Fake Woke White Wolf permalink
        February 12, 2019 12:51 am

        Correct on all fronts.

  14. Lamentations of Gary Gygax’s Ghost permalink
    February 11, 2019 12:04 pm

    Who could have foreseen this? Certainly not YDiS! We certainly didn’t predict something like this, what, Ten years ago?
    I wonder if Zpastic talking about Gummi Bears is code for taking it down a notch pharmaceutically like visiting a Deep Sleep Parlor in Logan’s Run? Just saying Zpastic isn’t one to stop at simple career suicide.
    Can’t wait for the Zpastic Sawk Poopet counter attack.

    • Franky Panky permalink
      February 11, 2019 2:33 pm

      Will he use a Shannon Appelcline sock puppet again? Gentle Men, Be suspicious if “Mike Mearls” starts defending the Zakling on Reddit.

      • Hehaw permalink
        February 11, 2019 4:42 pm

        Mike Mearls won’t do a thing for that puke, now that she’s chimed in:

        Trully, what a great way to start the year than seeing that rapist/ pedo motherfucker go down in flames.

        Go on Zak, do it. Put the rope around your neck and close your eyes. There’s also no better way to end your scumbag existence then by your own hand.

    • Fake Woke White Wolf permalink
      February 12, 2019 12:53 am

      Calling it now: his (dad’s) lawyers have advised him to wind it in online because you “aggressive brand protection” isn’t defensible in court.

  15. PrinceofNothing permalink
    February 11, 2019 12:35 pm

    Someone should keep track of his patreon as the news spreads so its possible to provide an estimate of the financial backlash, if any. 341 dollars now (400 dollars 29 januari, but no proven correlation, does anyone know how to track kickstarter shit?).

    The initial responses are promising, we have to wait for it to percolate a little bit to track the fallout. In the meantime, poor Zak needs some consolation after the horrible slander that people keep inexplicable throwing against him. If you are so inclined please post messages and prayers of compassion and support on his forum here:

    • PrinceofNothing permalink
      February 11, 2019 1:31 pm

      333 with 86 backers now vs 88 backers with 341

    • PrinceofNothing permalink
      February 11, 2019 2:34 pm

      85 backers 332 per month, starts off slow but we shall see.

      • February 11, 2019 2:51 pm

        I’m surprised they’re only just now pulling out. You’d think doing fuckall for months and then pretending to need Kickstarter money to fund the same thing would have done it.

    • PrinceofNothing permalink
      February 12, 2019 9:16 am

      81 backers, 321 dollars. I estimate a 3 day propagation time from the initial time before most of the relevant internet knows, so its going to be interesting to see if he drops below 300. It depends on the disavowals, I haven’t figured out a response time for this type of shit.

      • PrinceofNothing permalink
        February 12, 2019 9:35 am

        Sorry, check out the comments section on the kickstarter page, I underestimated the financial damage, this might be the killshot.

        (doubludoubluedoublu DOT)kickstarter (DOT) com/projects/1070557469/demon-city-the-ultimate-horror-rpg/comments

      • February 12, 2019 12:22 pm

        Stable, I think we can call it for the initial financial backlash on his patreon.

      • February 12, 2019 1:59 pm

        80 backers 316. Trickle and drip.

      • February 12, 2019 3:19 pm

        79, 312. Trickle. Trickle.

    • PrinceofNothing permalink
      February 12, 2019 9:34 am

      Engine kill.

    • Monet Matters permalink
      February 13, 2019 3:34 am

      $288 and falling.

      • Monet Matters permalink
        February 13, 2019 6:34 am


        Rats fleeing the ship.

      • February 13, 2019 9:53 am

        270 with 70 backers. What’s the spread? Who is betting over 200? Who is betting 150 or more. Do I hear 100? Total demolition?

        Do we have a counter-push yet?

      • February 13, 2019 4:13 pm

        265, 66 patrons.

      • Monet Matters permalink
        February 13, 2019 4:25 pm

        Slow bleed of lost Patreon money.
        An avalanche of former fans who want their names taken off of Demon City.
        The utter amputation of his ability to sell things on DriveThru.
        The sidebar on his blog filled with condemnations from supporters, thus necessitating its deletion.
        The nagging thought that more accusations are in the pipeline.

        Something’s rotten in Vornheim.

      • Monet Matters permalink
        February 13, 2019 4:30 pm

        $220 now, like sand through tattooed fingers it flows away.

      • Franky Panky permalink
        February 14, 2019 6:43 am

        Below $200 it goes. Zakster lost his $50/month sugar daddy. Now $198/mo. with 63 total rubes,11 at $5 or more, meaning a whole lot of $1 “Patrons”.

        Is this how a *Pr0n star* ends, not with a bang but with a trickle?

      • Franky Panky permalink
        February 14, 2019 6:45 am

        And his patreon goal is down to $200, from $400 per month. Oops, not even getting that now.

      • February 14, 2019 1:50 pm

        202, 64 patrons. Someone bought it?!?

      • February 14, 2019 3:59 pm

        The new patron can be a trojan horse in there to grab the files or rile up the locals from within. Shape shifters have been deployed. Speaking of which, it would be great if someone could post DIY Mike’s backer-only updates, mmkay?

      • February 15, 2019 4:29 pm

        200 62 patrons. Immortal Zak does not fall.

      • February 16, 2019 3:43 pm

        60, 195. Slowly but surely. The initial decline is losing momentum. Can he turn it around?

      • February 17, 2019 11:46 am

        59, 194. I’m thinking he has stuffed some shit in his own sock, like any expert begger, to incentivize other people to join up.

  16. Timotheus permalink
    February 11, 2019 12:36 pm

    The wheels of the gods grind slowly, but they grind very finely.

    Good for Mandy.

    Fuck you Zak, you rapist piece of shit. Lets see you Goebbels your way out of this one.

    Of course, this will have Faggi come begging for another manuscript of his to publish.

  17. Timotheus permalink
    February 11, 2019 1:06 pm

    And at the ‘shite, everyone is saying “What’s the big deal?” Hadn’t been there in a while, but it seems to be just a die-hard patch of alt-righters left there, nuzzling at Pundejo’s shriveled noodle for approval.

    • Lamentations of Gary Gygax’s Ghost permalink
      February 11, 2019 1:17 pm

      Yeah, the “not MY problem!” “What does THIS have to do with GAMING” is some fucking weaksauce response. But not surprising that they’d be reluctant to be negative towards their precocious Zpastic.

      • Fake Woke White Wolf permalink
        February 12, 2019 12:55 am

        “This isn’t gaming! off topic! mooooods!” is the X card for conservative forum manbabies. Am I wrong?

      • Timotheus permalink
        February 12, 2019 5:00 am

        All while “championing” free speech.

    • Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
      February 11, 2019 3:37 pm

      Misogyny is one of the main characteristics of Pundejo’s dead-enders, so they are probably reveling in the allegations that Zak abused Mandy and those other jezebels. Anita Sarkeesian, my flannel goddess, was right all along.

      • Timotheus permalink
        February 12, 2019 5:03 am

        Pundejo cut that thread off at the knees, but not before several of his loyal posters said she’d got what she deserved and felt no pity for her.

        Not unexpected at that shit hole.

      • PrinceofNothing permalink
        February 12, 2019 9:18 am

        I’m confused, didn’t they move it to another forum? Ah fuck it I am here to have a good laugh, not for the distribution of crimson ampules.

  18. Colin Khem permalink
    February 11, 2019 3:47 pm

    Given recent events I can not in good conscience support Demon City. I deeply regret that I’ve somehow stumbled through the world of tabletop RPGs over the last few years blind to Zak’s behavior and the concerns that have been raised about him, until now. Whether or not a refund can be issued, I would like to be removed as a backer from this project. Apologies to the creative and talented individuals who have put so much of their time into this project and have been similarly blindsided.

    If only I had been aware of the good work YDIS and his band of faggots were doing here, all of Tabletop Gaming would be a happier place.

    • Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
      February 11, 2019 4:11 pm

      Hi, Kent!

  19. Aos permalink
    February 11, 2019 5:08 pm

    It’s like a gathering of the round table.

  20. bloodymage OFFICIAL [VERIFIED] permalink
    February 11, 2019 6:12 pm

    I STILL can’t get this damned Yahoo toolbar off my computer! I need to do a fresh install. Again.
    sigh! 😦

  21. February 11, 2019 6:48 pm

    And that’s what happens when you make fun of How To Game Master Like A Fucking Boss!

  22. Satine Phoenix failed her friend Mandy permalink
    February 11, 2019 6:55 pm

    Satine only saw Zak protect Mandy Morbid? What a fucking lying cunt. Besides the obvious, public human shield aspect of Zak and Mandy’s relationship during the height of Shitbag Zak’s online wars, how could this dumb slaggy bitch have been besties with both for over a decade and not have seen a hint of his abuse?

    This a true Harvey Weinstein “Liberal Hollywood looks the other way while a sick creep abuses the vulnerable” type situation. I suggest Satine knew damn well, but was better friends with the creep plus got certain infamy from her association with him.

    It doesn’t seem like Mandy confided in Satine when she was escaping Zak’s madhouse, so either they weren’t friends at all (at least towards the end), or she simply didn’t trust the 6 pounds of make-up and rubber ears wearing Pilipino pig.

    I suspect Satine is a sociopath like Zak, hardened by early experiences, and actually admired Zak’s particular brand of aggression. She defended him plenty over the years. I would only hope she gets closer to the freak creep after this, gets in a relationship with him, and SHE ends up being choked out against the hallway wall in his shitbox Hollywood apartment while he froths at the mouth and speaks in tongues.

    You deserve all this Zak. It was just a matter of time before you were truly outed as a mega-creep. Bravo Mandy for doing the right thing. If it keeps at least one dumb skank from getting sucked into Zak’s Svengali blackhole of mental and physical abuse it’ll have been worth it.

    How will James Raggi the Last defend this? Right now he’s probably furiously jacking his wimpy pud thinking about Mandy getting throttled, but he’ll hit the keyboard soon, probably with something along the lines of “hey, it’s her word against his” crap.

    • February 11, 2019 9:23 pm

      “I suggest Satine knew damn well, but was better friends with the creep plus got certain infamy from her association with him.”

      That’s what I was thinking. Not just Satine, but many, MANY others.

      • Hehaw permalink
        February 12, 2019 4:54 am

        Everyone in this scumbag’s circle knew his MOI, but abuse is the norm when your life is centered around drugs, prostitution, and any other decadence that will damage you for your entire life–but more importantly–good riddance to one of the most heinous personalities to ever cross into the gaming world. Luckily, he never got that big or well known in the media as there would be a whole new ” Anti D&D Crusade” like you had in the 8o’s.

    • Fake Woke White Wolf permalink
      February 12, 2019 12:57 am

      You expect too much of Raggi. It’s a strict No Comment from him until he sees which way the wind blows.

    • Timotheus permalink
      February 12, 2019 5:13 am

      Yeah, Saltine saw it for 10 years. But since her association with the Attack was getting her paying gaming gigs, she looked the other way.

      She is a slut in every sense of the word. Her crocodile tears only fool the stupid who think there’s a chance…

      • Hehaw permalink
        February 12, 2019 6:41 am

        Satine’s no innocent either. She’s an ex-prostitute who used gaming to segway out of porn; even going so far as having lonely nerds pay money to hang out with her just so she doesn’t have to blow another mope to pay the rent. Nor would I even trust Mand as she was a little shit herself at times when Zak wasn’t writing under her name. But, I believe much of her story, and quite glad she started the bonfire on this utterly worthless piece of human trash.

        And with any public execution, you get plenty of people to speak up and pass the mike: next up RPGPoontang. Who has some nice things to say…

      • Timotheus permalink
        February 12, 2019 7:02 am

        His claims of “I told you so!” are hilarious, and as always, a lie.

        We told YOU, Tarnowski. When you were sucking his dick all over the ‘shite. This is the truth, it is all in time-stamped black and white, including your numerous references to this site. No matter how much you now claim otherwise.

        Go do pilates at your temple to Breivik.

  23. Aos permalink
    February 12, 2019 7:39 am

    It’s weird that he thinks we don’t have overgrown alleyway, discarded tires and a cats in North America.

  24. February 12, 2019 7:53 am

    Zak nuke his blog? I can’t get past the childproof lock page.

    • PrinceofNothing permalink
      February 12, 2019 9:27 am

      Still up, no response yet.

      • February 12, 2019 9:56 am

        I can’t get in unless I use Incognito Mode. He’s on to me!

      • February 12, 2019 10:04 am

        He is right to fear you. Damnit man but its good to see YDIS active again. It’s a little more degenerate then it used to be but this reminds me of the olden days of Tarno baiting. Good stuff. I think I am crying a little, but they are tears of joy. Reading the demon city kickstarter is like a belated christmas miracle.

    • PrinceofNothing permalink
      February 12, 2019 9:51 am

      Kickstarter says Zak’s discord, his Fortress of Solitude, will “prepare a reponse to mandy’s b.s. on wednesay.’ I don’t know what such a response would entail, possibly kicking her in the stomach until she miscarriages?

      • February 12, 2019 10:02 am

        Okay, likely just waiting for Charlotte Stokely to hoist her out of the wheelchair and pin her arms back for a clear shot.

  25. February 12, 2019 8:08 am

    Prediction Thread: What Is Zak’s Response? We know he’s going full in on “It’s all lies” but how does he spin it? My prediction: he blames her parents/friends/support network that she returned home to. Something like, “She ran to get away from them originally and they never liked me. I was her protector but they were always whispering in her ear, trying to get her back. They finally succeeded when her illness forced her back to Canada for care, and once they got her hooks in her again, they were able to convince her that I was awful, reassess everything that we did together through the prism of their prudish views and contempt for sexual freedom, and denounce me.”

    • PrinceofNothing permalink
      February 12, 2019 9:23 am

      I was going to add something along those lines but you are a better 4D chess player then me so that is all spot on, the Hawat to my Piter if you will. Elaboration, her friends are obviously evil conservatives (I think I saw one of them wearing a crucifix and telling his other daughter that she’d make a good mother once) that poisoned her against me by…manipulation and abuse! Yes! He’d accuse them of the very thing she is now accusing him of in a dashing feat of mimicry and it will end with him forgiving her because she is ultimately not the guilty party.

    • Satine Phoenix failed her friend Mandy permalink
      February 12, 2019 10:07 am

      Wack Zak is probably looking back on old posts to make sure nothing ties in to Mandy’s truths.

      Just months ago I was thinking how great it would be if Mandy only came forward with dirt on the dirtbag. But I never imagined it would have been so sweetly devastating. I so love that now when I see his name in the PHB I can smirk like Alex Delarge, rather than grimace in disgust.

    • Franky Panky permalink
      February 12, 2019 11:13 am

      The old “Reverse Stockholm Syndrome” gambit. A bold but risky play. He’ll do more than merely blame her parents and people in her support network. He’ll go nuclear on them. And direct his rat swarm to do the same. The few rats which are left in his swarm at any rate. The second act to this play is going to be very ugly.

    • February 12, 2019 11:28 am

      He has been acting a little more unhinged then usual as of late but I am going to hedge my bets and say that he will rein in his divine fury and respond with calm, calculated anger, wounded pride and approximately 20 screenshots and chatlogs rather then all out autistic fury that will only backfire, I think we ain’t seen the last of Zak gang.

      Do we think Mandy is into 4D chess too and does she have a counter info-dump prepared, even before this? I doubt it, but that will ensure a total shitshow.

      • Franky Panky permalink
        February 12, 2019 1:21 pm

        Mandy is one and out on this. However, she did learn a little something from living with Zak lo those many years. I’m certain she has her own little vermin swarm trained and ready, apparently to be led by StacyD.

        Mandy will check in on the carnage later. Maybe to squat over Zak’s smoldering carcass and drop a deuce on it. Or run it over with her wheel chair. Hmmm. I should send her Kaskoid’s contact info. He could be of some service with that, the running over bit.

      • February 12, 2019 3:03 pm

        That vermin swarm is going to get smashed in the counter-play. She needs to show phone logs of some fucked up or suggestive shit if she wants to make it through to the end, this is not a killshot yet, none of his significant financial pillars have disavowed.

      • Franky Panky permalink
        February 12, 2019 10:01 pm

        DriveThruRPG won’t sell any new stuff to which he is a contributor. I wonder how significant a financial pillar that is for him.

        Honestly, I think Mandy already delivered the kill shot, one to the gut, not the head. It’ll take longer for Zak to go paws up, but it will be much more painful.

        He still has his art career to fall back on. For now.

      • February 13, 2019 10:23 am

        Holy shit he is done. This is a hurricane level offensive. They didn’t even wait for the counter-strike. The third girl corraborating it nails it. Nothing on the Zak front but silence.

  26. Bigby’s Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
    February 12, 2019 9:26 am

    It’s funny to watch someone succumbing to natural selection on Darwin’s birthday.

  27. Satine Phoenix failed her friend Mandy permalink
    February 12, 2019 10:38 am

    Some nice comments (eventually).

    Much quiet in the blOSR right now. I understand they can’t exactly get into it on Dragonsfoot because of the sensitive English poof mods, but I’d like to see somebody like Tenkar chime in. Instead Zaks name is being brought up but no poopy. But hey, buy Raggi’s new thing and Zak (or Franky!!!) will give you 100 words on how to run the unrunnable.

    • Franky Panky permalink
      February 12, 2019 11:22 am

      The blOSR is quiet on this because its adherents do not consider Zak to be one of their own. He is ‘not of the body’.

      Tenkar is plugging, or criticizing, some LotFaP book (for those sweet, sweet affiliate link nickels) where ZakS may offer commentary for a 25 euros pledge. Or something. yes, they involved me in this. At GenCon. Raggi and Zakster asked Me. I was busy *appreciating* some of the talent the Zakster brought– that sweet little blonde — and in that state of mind, I would have agreed to anything. I am a skeezy old man after all. I’ll take the money and write some pseudo-high Gygaxian commentary, but I have no intention of reading any of that LotFaP crap. The story has at least made its way into the comments, so the Good Constable is aware of the situation.

      • Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
        February 12, 2019 11:36 am

        Earlier tonight, Ken Hite stated: “I will, however, not work with Zak on any future projects, knowingly share a credits page with him on any future projects, or increase his social media reach.” That’s going to be an interesting conflict.

        Yeah, an interesting conflict, like a batting contest between Jose Canseco and the second best hitter in the local beer softball league.

    • Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
      February 12, 2019 11:58 am

      Has Shannon Applecline weighed in on Reddit yet?

  28. Satine Phoenix failed her friend Mandy permalink
    February 12, 2019 10:54 am

    Satine Phoenix, before its too late come clean. Maybe you didn’t see it all, but there must have been murmurs. You spent a lot of time with Zak Trash. You had to have seen/experienced things. Your own experiences in your family should have made you hyper aware of such.

    You will only dig a hole for yourself if you continue to deny. There is no more you can gain from association with the shit. Speak out. Support poor Mandy. Help keep him from hurting again.

    Many of us wish Zak could pay The Iron Price for his shit. But we’ll be glad just to see him gone. And he will be. Get with the fucking program. TELL THE TRUTH.

    • Hehaw permalink
      February 12, 2019 11:44 am

      That pig-nose bitch knew quite well what was going on. Afterall, she fucked them both on camera in that little shitbox apartment in Hollywood, a few years back.

    • FEAR OF THE UNBLOWN permalink
      February 12, 2019 6:53 pm

      I know for you guys (okay just Franky Panky) the elf ears are what you think of but I can’t even look at Saltine Penix promoting D&D and family game nights and not see three huge black cocks in all of her orifices pounding the shit out of her at the same time.

      • FEAR OF THE UNBLOWN permalink
        February 12, 2019 6:55 pm

        And I think she has an X Card tattooed on her ass now for slapping!

  29. Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
    February 12, 2019 11:31 am

    I just want to see a statement from Raggi saying that Zak is no longer allowed to ride on his shoulders in the Thunderdome.

  30. zakbot permalink
    February 12, 2019 2:46 pm

    I told you all you cat fucking tipper types Evans was loyal. So is my sweet Charlotte and remember everyone; your patron dollars pay for 12 Bejnamins a year of tit augmentation she doesnt even need.

    Mandy- Charlotte wants you to be aware the giant gummy bear wants to sy hello to you. You know what this mens. Tomorrow

    • zakbot permalink
      February 12, 2019 3:21 pm

      “I’d also suggest that the statement by Mandy Morbid would constitute an allowed instance of WP:PRIMARY. Especially since his minimal claim to notability is derived from his relationship to her”

      what is this bullplop im famous

  31. Giant Frozen Frost Giant Penis permalink
    February 12, 2019 4:18 pm

    The saddest thing in all of this is how the group zak once called the “drama club”, i.e., touchyfeelystorygamers, are dancing around like they’ve won something. They don’t give a fuck about Mandy. All they care about is using her to say they were right all along, which they weren’t. They also want to pillory anyone vaguely associated with him. Their tactics are disgusting.

    • FEAR OF THE UNBLOWN permalink
      February 12, 2019 4:28 pm

      Hi Zak!

  32. Timotheus permalink
    February 12, 2019 5:16 pm

    So The Attack will go on the offensive tomorrow, eh?

    I see him screeching in a bunker, ordering non-existent panzer battalions to make final counterattacks against the oncoming horde as dust and ashes fall into his half-shaven head.


    • FEAR OF THE UNBLOWN permalink
      February 12, 2019 6:31 pm

      • February 13, 2019 10:33 am

        That’s…a pretty crude meme bra. I would going with something more subtle, like those cringy teddy-bear twitter quotes juxtaposed against an image of Geoffry face-grabbing that hooker he crossbowed.

  33. FEAR OF THE UNBLOWN permalink
    February 12, 2019 6:48 pm


    Mike Mearls breaks his silence on all this and FINALLY gives us official confirmation of something we have always assumed all along:

    Alt-Right blowhard RPGPundit was only a measly PLAYTESTER!

    • Flumphernutter permalink
      February 12, 2019 9:37 pm

      The comments under Mearls’ post are a ridiculous riot of spaztastic self-righteous indignation. Zak is a piece of shit. We get it. Move on. Some idiots are asking for official statements from Hasbro. Like a company that’s currently under huge stress from losing one of its biggest outlets (Toys R Us) and facing declining sales is going to give a shit about one minor tiny product line deleting someone’s name from the next printing of a book. Fuckin millennials.

      But tomorrow is going to be fun when the Zak Attack tries to defend himself.

      • February 12, 2019 10:19 pm

        Maybe if SJWs didn’t lose their shit about anything and everything Mearls might have believed them. They spend all day pissing and moaning and shitting themselves about self-defined racism, sexism and misogyny it’s no surprise he didn’t do shit back then.

  34. Captain Kirks Dick Blood permalink
    February 12, 2019 10:29 pm

    In his shitbox, his H-wood shitbox
    Zak Smith can’t sleep tonight
    In his shitbox, his darkened shitbox
    Zak Smith can’t sleep tooni-iite

    Lets string him up lets string him up
    Lets string him up lets string him up
    Lets string him up lets string him up
    Lets string him up lets string him up

    Hush now Mandy, don’t cry now Mandy
    Zak Smith can’t sleep tonight
    Hush now Mandy, don’t fear now Mandy
    What you did was ri-iiiight

    Lets string him up lets string him up
    Lets string him up lets string him up
    Lets string him up lets string him up
    Lets string him up lets string him up

  35. Monster Charm Power permalink
    February 13, 2019 12:51 am

    HGere’s Number 2. Yeah. Zak is horrible. But wow these girls were dumb.

    Vivka Grey shared a post.
    3 hrs ·
    Im scared to write this. Im scared to put it to text and “verbalize” it in this way. Ive spent so many years dissociating and compartmentalizing what I went through. Its hard knowing others are going to read this.
I will try to be concise.

I lived with Zak Smith and his now ex-wife Mandy Morbid, and was their girlfriend. I think it was about 2010, as I had been living in California for only a short time. Before this, I was on their podcast “I Hit it with my Axe”. I was written about in Maxim about my D&D gaming with them. Zak has (or maybe had?) “Viv says hi” tattooed on his arm. Im that Viv.

Monsters are charismatic creatures.

    Everything he said was always that perfect calculated cocktail mix of educated but blase. Everything always had underlining currents of dismissal and belittle, to where I just believed he did know best. If anything felt off or wrong, it was surely my fault. 

    I was groomed, I was gaslighted.

I remember he told me he loved me, very quickly, and then demanded I say it back. He would take naked photos of Mandy and I and post them online, making comments about how I was their girlfriend and that I loved them and I was theirs. He knew I was in a rough financial situation, and he forced me to move in with him so he could “keep me close”. He made everything fast and public and in a way, I felt so cemented and stuck.


I remember he would compliment one part of me while carefully putting down another. He kept my confidence at the perfect level of apologetic.

    I remember him hugging me from behind, kissing me on the cheek, and as he walked away he said “you could be so pretty”. 

    For my birthday, he bought me my first breast implants. I wanted bigger breasts, so that was a positive… but the months of him telling me how “unfortunate” and “pointless” my natural body happened to be was not. I remember coming out of surgery, groggy from the anesthesia, and hearing him tell Mandy to lift up my shirt so he could “see what [he] bought”… and I remember him being disgusted and asking why they were still small (I went from a small B to a D). I remember crying then, thinking my body was ruined. I remember taking my first round of pain killers later that day and him pressuring me for a timeline of when he would get to fuck them.


I remember him using my past sexual experiences as gateways. They were pushed on me, and presented in a way that was “well, you did this with them, and so now you will do it with me.” Even if I didnt enjoy it the first time. 

    I was pressured to have sex with other people of his choosing (he called it “sport-fucking”) but was never allowed to pursue anything with anyone I felt an interest in.

    I remember all of his jokes about kicking Mandy or I out of the house if we didnt perform for him, or how we would be “useless” otherwise. I remember when they stopped feeling like jokes, even though he still would laugh when saying it.


I remember all the times, the many times, I said No, and I would be met with a deadpan stare and he would say “Yes”. I remember being expected to be at his beck and call for sex, at any time with any service. Mandy was his perfect porcelain doll, and I was his fun new toy. 

    I remember sometimes the sex would hurt, and he’d tell me I just had to “loosen up” and shoving a pillow in my face to bite and cry into while he continued. 

    I remember so many other things. Like how absolutely horrible and traumatic the break up was, and how it took over a month because of his need to control the situation… but that is another story and I feel the other details are more important.


I mostly remember my fear of saying anything afterwards. Everyone seemed to KNOW Zak was a jerk. People seemed to ignore when he was downright cruel. He’s charismatic and talented and influential. The few times I did bring up some of what I went through with him, it was usually met with a shrug and something along the lines of “yeah, that’s Zak”. 

    This was one of the hardest things Ive ever written. Ive stared at this screen for hours. Ive cried twice. There are so many other things I could have said or elaborated on … but I dont have the strength. And Mandy said most of it already. 

    So here is some of my story.


Im relieved people are finally talking about what type of man Zak Smith really is.

    please read Mandy’s words here~

    • Aos permalink
      February 13, 2019 4:01 am

      Point if information: Everybody’s pretty dumb at 20.

  36. Monster Charm Power permalink
    February 13, 2019 12:52 am


  37. Sparklemotion permalink
    February 13, 2019 6:48 am

    DTRPG has now stated that any product moving forward that has Zak associated with it is no longer able to be sold. Dangerous precedent honestly.


    DriveThruRPG Responds to Current Industry News

    Thanks to everyone for your patience as we deliberated on the situation that has unfolded regarding Zak Smith (aka Zak Sabbath). At DriveThruRPG, we want to do our part to keep bad actors out of the roleplaying community, and we don’t want business relationships with such people. As such, you’d think there wouldn’t be much deliberation needed on our part. However, the situation posed a number of challenges for us to consider in terms of precedent and collateral impact on other parties.

    I have decided that we will not accept future titles for sale on DriveThruRPG (or our other marketplaces) if Zak is a contributor on the title. If any publisher has a title-in-process to which Zak is a contributor and this policy would impact you financially, then we’d ask that you please reach out to us via the publisher services link to have a dialogue about that title.

    For titles currently on our marketplace in which Zak is listed as a contributor, we have checked those publisher accounts, and none of these titles have us paying money directly to Zak. While it is likely that Zak does earn a royalty on some titles sold on DriveThruRPG, any such royalties would be paid directly by the publisher of the title, not by DriveThruRPG.

    Further, whatever royalty Zak might get from any publisher on our store is unlikely to be the entirety of what we pay that publisher. We do not feel it’s fair to penalize financially those who worked with Zak in the past, including both publishers and possibly other contributors earning income from these titles. Therefore, we expect publishers to make their own decision to continue selling these titles or not, presumably after consulting with all other contributors.

    For our part, we will be identifying all titles to which Zak contributed and diverting all of the revenue shares that DriveThruRPG might make from sales of these titles as a donation to RAINN (

    I’ll try to pre-emptively answer other possible questions below.

    When this happened, why did you not suspend sale of Zak’s titles while you deliberated?When we expect that it will take us a few days to deliberate on a title reported for offensive content, our policy is to temporarily suspend sales of that title. In this case, though, it was not the content of any particular title under discussion, and we did not find any titles where we directly paid Zak for ongoing sales during our deliberation.

    So DriveThruRPG is now banning certain creators? Will whoever the “outrage brigade” complains about next be banned as well?
    We all share a responsibility for the health of our hobby. Any demographic measure we’ve ever seen on the roleplaying hobby shows women are under-represented. Things won’t improve if people shirk the responsibility to make our hobby inclusive.

    Zak Smith has a long and well-documented history of behaviors antithetical to a healthy community. In light of recent allegations, which we find credible, we think our business and our hobby is better off without him, so we’re doing our part.

    We already have a small list of other bad actors in the industry with whom we refuse to do business: people who have repeatedly abused crowdfunding platforms for personal enrichment, who repeatedly engaged in IP violations, who have repeatedly treated our staff or customers in unacceptably unprofessional ways, and so on. If you repeatedly act like a jerk (or worse, a predator), we won’t wait for other people to complain about you. We’ll just quietly stop doing business with you.

    Why are you not banning his existing titles?
    Because we don’t want to hurt other people who also contributed to those same titles just to diminish Zak. Banning those existing titles risks doing just that.

    Steve Wieck
    OneBookShelf / DriveThruRPG

    • February 13, 2019 10:03 am

      So DriveThruRPG is now banning certain creators? Will whoever the “outrage brigade” complains about next be banned as well?


    • Timotheus permalink
      February 13, 2019 12:01 pm

      Oh, bullshit.

      A couple of years ago that Tokyo rape tournament game got banned and all the alt-righters cried that a dangerous precedent was being set.

      Please name all the games that have been banned because the outrage crew cried about them since that momentous event.

      People have a right to sell what they want. You shouldn’t hold a gun to their head and force them to sell shit because “slippery slope! Next we’ll all be banned!”

      • February 13, 2019 12:37 pm

        “We already have a small list of other bad actors in the industry with whom we refuse to do business:”

        Read. Notice that some of those future crimes mentioned are serious and some of those crimes are “being a jerk.” An extrapolation of increasing polarization is not unreasonable in the future and so an extrapolation of increasingly disproportional responses is also reasonable. I’d drop Zak like a bad habit too if I was selling his merch, but damn that sure didn’t take em long. I’d be a little worried if a company selling my shit would take that long to kick me under the bus if I ever got accused of something like that. If that’s an unreasonable position I suggest the air in this fetid swamp of a place has dulled your wits.

        Now are we going to switch to an accusation of Pro-Zak Sdom or are we going to shut the fuck up, shake hands and watch this magnificent bonfire?

      • Timotheus permalink
        February 13, 2019 1:02 pm

        You wanna shake hands after calling me stupid for not sharing your unfounded fears?


        With the caveat that when/if your behavior matched Zak’s online and in person for an extended time, you’d deserve to be treated the same way and at the same speed. As it is, your parroting of Vox Gay’s talking points does not rise to that level, despite cheapening your brand. It might be the fetid waters of Swamp Germany that dulls your vision, though. Maybe all those foreigners are pissing in it, eh?

      • February 13, 2019 2:40 pm

        I would love to shake hands after pointing out that one can at least make the argument for my very founded fears (see the Mike Mearls thing below). Those people are fucking bonkers. Having an industry that caters to the whims of fucking psychotics is not a stable field for investment. Dude, you always get a little salty when we argue, I am not talking down to you.

        I find it strange you can clearly see that people (the most vicious creature since Sahuagin) can be ruthless and cloak their hateful, greedy natures behind a facade of virtue, as in the case of Zak S or some of those things in Mearl’s comment section but you react as if I had just proposed we re-open Auswitsch when I point out that Drivethru’s response is basically a carte blanche for them.

        Everyone is suddenly acting as if all their ridiculous shrieking has now been vindicated. It is not.

        People with terrible intentions often tell you they are doing it for a greater good. People are smart enough to use vulnerable people as a shield for their bad intentions. Zak is a poster child for this shit.

        Swamp Germany is not like Atlantis so the water cannot effectively dull my vision you ignorant amerocentrist imperialist cis-het opressor. Prove me wrong or be called a Liar!

      • Timotheus permalink
        February 13, 2019 4:27 pm

        Fair enough, dude. But they ain’t the only politically-driven people that are clearly bonkers.

        I don’t see Drivethru’s response as carte blanche – that would have already happened many times by now, ever since the Tokyo rape tournament game got the finger. It hasn’t (unless you can name one I am unfamiliar with). So they have a few authors they won’t publish. Those dudes – including Zak – can easily sell their own shit online all by themselves. Not as easily or conveniently, but such is not a human right.

        Sure the outrage fools will declare victory. Their dumbass political counterparts do it every day as well (Pundejo and his cult, Teddie Beale and his phalanx of tools, et al).

        It won’t affect your gaming at all. Or your ability to sell your own games. Unless you start acting like Zak, or did blackface somewhere someone was using a camera.

        Anyway, I’ll try to take a higher road when we argue. Atlantean scum.

      • February 14, 2019 1:31 am

        Two fifth edition Vampire books, that I know of. And Paradox had to clean house, at least publically, by appointing someone to hold Ericsson’s leash and looking outside Swedenborkland for Sjgoren’s replacement.

        I mean: those books DID cause an international incident, but Outrage Brigades were seen marching on the left and right flanks for weeks to either side. It would be wrong to pretend the sensibilities of Anglosphere customers were not involved on some level.

      • Timotheus permalink
        February 14, 2019 4:11 am

        Hmmm. Perhaps I am wrong. I don’t pay attention to Vampire. So I can educate myself, which 2 books got banned at Drivethru?

      • Fake Woke White Wolf permalink
        February 14, 2019 10:46 am

        Ah, no, the fault is mine: I didn’t realise you were specifically talking about DriveThru. But, for reference and a broad view, the Camarilla and Anarch source books were both redacted and pulled from Modiphius’ website and pre-orders delayed while some problematic content could be removed.

      • February 14, 2019 11:01 am

        “Fair enough, dude. But they ain’t the only politically-driven people that are clearly bonkers.”

        True but irrelevant to the statement, which is simply that Drivethru will now be more amendable to “the outrage brigade.”

        “I don’t see Drivethru’s response as carte blanche – that would have already happened many times by now, ever since the Tokyo rape tournament game got the finger. It hasn’t (unless you can name one I am unfamiliar with). So they have a few authors they won’t publish. Those dudes – including Zak – can easily sell their own shit online all by themselves. Not as easily or conveniently, but such is not a human right.”

        So the first statement is true and with the extra evidence and the section in the statement by drivethru itself we are forced to conclude, “well it has happened several times since then” and unless you are willing to hazard it has happened many times before that (unlikely but I am open to it) that sounds like you sort of agree it may have happened more often after the first banning. Its almost as if you are willing to entertain this sort of concession to public outrage might lower the threshold for further concessions in the future. Like some sort of…slippery angular floor. A slope if you will.

        All that extra shit you said about it not being a human right or being able to sell your shit online is irrelevant to my statement, which is that drivethru will now be more amendable to the outrage brigade if it follows its own statement. At best you can argue my single word point as an insufficient expression of the magnitude of this concession, which I would concede immediately.

        “Sure the outrage fools will declare victory. Their dumbass political counterparts do it every day as well (Pundejo and his cult, Teddie Beale and his phalanx of tools, et al).”

        Doesn’t matter to my statement. I agree Vox is a dangerous man and can lead people down a fucking terrifying path. He also isn’t in the OSR or rpgs at all. I don’t agree Pundejo is dangerous at all, I think he is a ghost past his prime, capable only of mocking himself with terrible videos and getting by on steam, a thousand tiny revenue streams and fondness. If thats the worst the OSR has to fear from the rightwing, I say the threat is overrated. Unlike the lynchmobs you see on twitter around mearls, or the lynchmobs you saw when Venger identified as a Za’akier, which were relatively numerous.

        “It won’t affect your gaming at all. Or your ability to sell your own games. Unless you start acting like Zak, or did blackface somewhere someone was using a camera.”

        Yes but I am describing the future, not the status quo. Also that almost sounds like Drivethru being more amendable to the outrage brigade might not harm me in the slightest, so you are implicitly agreeing with my statement.

        *Pivot, dab, avert gaze from explosion*

      • Timotheus permalink
        February 14, 2019 12:15 pm

        Dude, that’s sad.

        If this was in good faith, it might be pursuing, but it’s not. Not when you’re going full-blown Zak in sentence analysis.

        Good luck. Sincerely.

      • February 15, 2019 4:28 pm

        Wolves do not face sheep.

    • February 13, 2019 12:15 pm

      My Father is going to sue you into the dust Wieck. This is a free speech issue and I suspect a libel issue as well. But hey cat fuckers sty tuned for my h-o-t rebuttal I been working hard on it to make it shine. You might notice I took all the gamer blogs off my site. Consider ti just a coming attrction of my 4d chess.

  38. Satine Phoenix failed her friend Mandy permalink
    February 13, 2019 10:01 am

    Wondering if this new gal’s post will alter Zak’s carefully planned, up all night response.

    Not sure how porny she is. Can’t find skin on skin in the usual spots. Just her appearances on Hit It with my Jizz and some Wasteland Weekend crap.

    Sasha Gray remains the only true star, but mostly know for that nauseating swallow 30 loads stuff. She long since distanced herself from Zak, though no indication he ever fucked her. But I think she got involved as part of her attempt to get distanced from the grossout porns, but realized sitting in a Hollywood apartment playing games on summer days with skeevy dudes and Svengalied fuck pigs wasn’t improving her image.

    • Sparklemotion permalink
      February 13, 2019 10:47 am

      The groundwork for the story is starting to be laid out in public. The narrative is one that was predicted as being out there: Angry, White Woman who did Porn, is on drugs, and getting back at her Ex.

      From Tenkurd’s Tabbern:

      vivaldi0February 13, 2019 at 2:29 AM
      I did a bit of investigation. This story is ripe with “”, “porn stars and drama”, “drugs”, and “hateful feminists”. I ran into Stacy Dellorfano as she was preparing to go to GaryCon as an activist and protest the convention. I responded to her letter and she wrote back with a few angry remarks, felt she lost the argument and blocked me and published my first comment. I was then blocked by all personnel and then sent information about DriveThruRPG and Mandy’s statement. I knew something was not going to be good, since I discovered Mandy is with the Contessa site (which is a site where they hate all straight white men. It became clear that Porn, drugs, and spiteful women were not a good mixture. So here I am posting my conclusion, which is really a girl that was in porn got angry at her porn boyfriend and now she felt she needed to go to a publisher that has both of their published materials online and try and oust zak from driveThru. I don’t know zak and he sounds like douche, but it seems clear that driveThru didn’t read between the lines and made a snap decision in favor of zak’s competition that also publishes material on DriveThru. I hope this dude has a good lawyer.

      • Lamentations of Gary Gygax’s Ghost permalink
        February 13, 2019 11:06 am

        That’s not even a Zpastic sock puppet. That’s probably the lamest reaction thus far but glad such boy geniuses have ya boi Zpastic’s back. Fuck, Zpastic only has his true mouth breathers manning the gates of that’s the best rebuttal that can be mustered.

      • Sparklemotion permalink
        February 13, 2019 11:10 am

        I think that is going to be one of many attack vector’s deployed to see which part of the story takes the most root and then run with it. Shotgunning as it appears to be

      • February 13, 2019 11:52 am

        >It became clear that Porn, drugs, and spiteful women were not a good mixture.

        But that’s not a CRIME

  39. Timotheus permalink
    February 13, 2019 1:32 pm

    Wow. Just checked out the commentary on that twitter post by Mearls. I can understand some being disappointed by the measured response and his mail-it-in investigations back in 2014, but there some serious psychos replying there. Typical “cis white dude” and “position of power” hate, but then people wanting Mearls to resign and reparations from WOTC/Hasbro? Get real, kids. They need to stay on target.

    • Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
      February 13, 2019 2:35 pm

      The big problem was that Mearls fucked up royally by forwarding unredacted emails complaining about Zak’s harassment to Zak, who was known for brigading his detractors.

    • Franky Panky permalink
      February 13, 2019 3:40 pm

      For this crowd, Mearls was always going to be a target. It was a matter of time.

      The D&D division costs Hasbro very little and makes a nice little dividend. As long as that continues, and Mearls makes sure to get approval from the Attorneys and Human Resources people at Hasbro for statements like this — and you know this statement was “reviewed”– He’ll be safe. Unless he lets down his guard around the treacherous Jeremy Crawford. A true snivelling worm, that one.

      • Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
        February 13, 2019 6:42 pm

        Spice… flow… you get the picture. I know I posted that upthread, but it’s ALWAYS appropriate. Fuck it, time to dance.

      • February 13, 2019 7:02 pm

        Stop your dancing. Its still Wednesday here and my point by point takedown of those treasonous girls will pop your pistons once I do spell check and have the opportunity to speak with all of our business partners and any statement we make still has to be legally vetted by my father irregardless

        (Weve been constuling with Todd McMurtry and Lin Wood and will 95% sue everyone in the industry whose libeled me in the last few days not limited to Wieck Wick Hite Mennell and Mearls/TSR)

  40. I'm Pissing Caltrops permalink
    February 13, 2019 4:43 pm

    So shithead has probably started threatening people behind the scenes with legal action, including his biggest champion…This from lotfp’s facebook:

    LotFP: RPG
    12 hrs ·
    Jim here. Just to let everyone know, I am not ignoring the current situation. But I have not yet had the opportunity to speak with all of our business partners, and any statement we make has to be legally vetted. A statement will be coming when that’s all been dealt with.

    • Lamentations of Gary Gygax’s Ghost permalink
      February 13, 2019 8:03 pm

      Translation: Unsure if edgy shitlord is route to take…. THIS may affect my already plummeting sales figures so I’m being more cagey in watching the landscape before I support or denounce Zpastic. Money money grumble grumble hash don’t smoke itself and I’ve built a tolerance so I need money for more hash but sum products!

      • February 13, 2019 8:13 pm

        Raggi is loyal. Without me hed have to rewrite the Lichway againon his own and nobody wants that. His back catalog reverts to Kelvin Green etc.

        PS remember, look for my balls deep response to the lies on Thurs

  41. C@Demon City Kick permalink
    February 13, 2019 8:45 pm

    What is being done to ensure that none of the women depicted or referenced in the art for Demon City were victims? Zak has mentioned before using women he knows, including Mandy, for references and even using their likeness.

    Please sell my copy and donate the proceeds to NAMBLA. Thank You.

  42. Zak's Sleepless Nights permalink
    February 13, 2019 9:31 pm

    Amid the chaos, Joe the Unblown Lawyer nominates Christian Walker patron saint of zines.

    Nobody seconds it.

    Oh, and he believes Mandy.

  43. Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
    February 13, 2019 9:44 pm

    From the ‘Shack, we have Zak’s dumbest ‘Stan’:

    I ran into Stacy Dellorfano as she was preparing to go to GaryCon as an activist and protest the convention.

    Our Sergeant interrogates the suspect:

    I met her online after her lengthy protest letter for GaryCon.

    Ay, que pinche puto baboso…

  44. Let me tell you about my character permalink
    February 14, 2019 12:03 am

    Zak sez…

    “The accusations aren’t true, here’s alllll the facts in detail:”

    • I'm Pissing Caltrops permalink
      February 14, 2019 1:42 am

      The TL:DR of this: “I’m a hopeless romantic that really cares and here are the shields who are still Svengalied by me to prove it. Oh, and Mandy is a cunt but I hope the best for her…”

    • Timotheus permalink
      February 14, 2019 4:29 am

      “I can clarify anything.”

      Uh huh.

    • February 14, 2019 7:07 am

      If you want to be a part of my Rat Pack, Bro, you need to do better. Post my whole, highly compassionate, completely truthful, and utterly convincing rebuttal in its entirety. I know that it is a wall of text, but there is so much to explain about how wonderful and caring a person that I am. I’m practically as saintly as Mother Theresa.

      The Statement
      Sorry for three days’ silence—Mandy’s post included serious accusations and our friends told me to talk to a lawyer.

      It’s strange to have to defend myself against the charge of not loving Mandy. She was the absolute center of my life during the best part of it, and I always did everything I could to try to give her the life she wanted. She is the very last person in the world who needs any more pain than she’s already been subjected to.

      Mandy was wonderful and smart and beautiful and fierce and sharp. I loved her blindly and totally, and sacrificed everything and defended her to people she had angered or written off. It’s genuinely painful that she thinks – two years after we separated – that I never loved her. Looking back on all the well-recorded hospital visits and medical bills and snapshots and ticket stubs and the people we met and the songs we listened to together and all the stories attached to every old photo and book and game and bandage and prescription bottle I had to carefully pack up and put away when she left and all the things I had to do and say and make to give her some semblance of a full life, I guess I don’t know what else love could’ve looked like. And I guess I didn’t just fool myself, I fooled everyone else since until the end everyone kept telling us how shocked they were that the longest-running couple they knew was over. She spent years saying no-one was allowed to push her in her wheelchair but me.

      Of course, when I refer to “everyone”, I’m not talking about Jennifer who never was in a position to observe our day-to-day lives, or Hannah, who mostly knew us at the end of our relationship, after Mandy had already secretly decided to leave me. I’m not talking about Viv, who we have been on bad terms with since she broke up with us (more on this below) and I think is still mad at me for not including her in a published photo shoot soon after she left us. There were plenty of others who were actually in a position to observe our relationship every day, who lived with us for months and even years—often in the same room … those people tell a very different story than the people Mandy has enlisted in her campaign. Here is the person—Michelle Ford (“Connie” to gamers)—who knew us best, from a response Mandy deleted from beneath her Facebook attack post:

      “Maybe this will fall on deaf ears, but I have to say something. I have publicly stayed quiet when I see these things, Mandy, because I love you and I have held onto this hope that I could stay neutral and you could try to heal from this matter privately. But every time I see one of these one-sided dogpile posts it turns my stomach. I literally threw up after I read this. You know from that whole gaming ordeal how easy it is to gang up on someone and publicly destroy them online, and that is what you’re doing now, as you claimed you would in the past.

      “It breaks my heart to see these things said about someone I love, by someone I love. And then from someone who was around for ‘months’ and then someone who hasn’t been in contact with Zak in ‘about a decade’. I knew you two as a couple for 8 years, lived with you for around 5 of those years, as a friend for some, as a girlfriend for most, and the abuse you describe just doesn’t add up to what I experienced. You’ve even agreed with me, saying that most of this occurred in the year after I left. If I’m being generous I could say the mistreatment went both ways. You spoke down to, belittled, controlled, and even physically attacked Zak in front of friends. I understand that things got ugly when your relationship fell apart after over a decade; things usually get ugly at the end of intense long-term relationships, but what you’re doing now isn’t fair and it isn’t in good faith.

      “I would just like to add my perspective — that I have never been afraid of Zak. We have fought and exchanged some mighty unpleasant sentiments, as is bound to happen occasionally in any relationship, but I have never felt that he is willing or capable of physical violence against myself or any of the women we know. He has lifted me up and shown me compassion and patience in some of the lowest points in my life and that is why I can’t just sit here and ‘try not to get involved’.

      “We had/have many female friends who also trust and believe in Zak, who have stayed friends with him through this, and they have been cut off by Mandy and removed from this conversation, and that is why everyone here is only hearing the “Zak is a monster” side of the story. I expect that I’ll be next.”

      [Photos omitted. You need to visit the site, which I’ve monetized — I’ll be needing sources of income — to see them.]

      Michelle—our friend and sometimes girlfriend—lived with us for 5 years, and saw everything, and is saying that Mandy’s allegations are false, that I treated Mandy well and that I took care of Mandy. Michelle saw Mandy’s personality issues and heard Mandy explicitly say she wanted to tear me apart and ruin my career. Michelle saw the hole Mandy kicked in the door to our apartment that made us lose our security deposit. Michelle knew us and is saying I was never abusive to Mandy. She is saying Mandy and I had normal relationship issues but nothing out of the ordinary.

      Mandy, on the other hand, punched me in the eye in front of a carful of witnesses.

      Likewise, our mutual friend Charlotte Stokely—who’s known us intimately for the past 13 years, observed us at our home, work, at play and everywhere else—says that I dedicated my life to Mandy while we were together. Charlotte saw me carrying Mandy up the stairs to her bed when Mandy couldn’t move. Mandy never spoke of anything even close to abuse to Charlotte and Charlotte was the one who drove Mandy to the airport the day she left and says in all that time she never saw me abuse anyone.

      Michelle, Charlotte, and many other people who lived in Los Angeles while we were together had much closer relationships with Mandy and me than any of the people Mandy has mentioned in her version of events. Michelle lived with us in one big room for years – her bed was only 25 feet from ours and there were no walls, doors or dividers between us. She saw everything.

      Michelle even contributed to the tattoo listing all of Mandy’s pre-existing medical conditions on my right forearm. It was practical—for when I had to fill out the clipboards they gave us during our (increasingly frequent) ambulance rides and hospital visits. I never expected to have to get a cover-up.

      I hope that speaks to the general concerns. Many of you reading will want to know about each specific accusation and I owe you a full explanation, these are serious charges:

      A great example of how contorted Mandy’s statements are is the part where I supposedly said something like “if you don’t want to have sex what’s the point of you?” – this is a joke reference from Martin Amis’ 1984 novel, Money. Mandy and I read these books together all the time, we even had two identical copies of Moronic Inferno (so I could read one on a trip and she could read one at home)—I think The Information was the first one we read together. Now that joke in that book is purportedly something I used to attack the love of my life. If that’s abuse then what are we supposed to do with Mandy saying things like “Good dick will imprison you”?

      Mandy’s description of how I supposedly judged women is inaccurate and not just taken out of context but placed into a new, imaginary context. First, we were a couple in an open relationship who openly and frankly evaluated people we might both be attracted to and wanted to have sex with. Mandy would sneer at women she didn’t like and attack how they looked (“too fat”, “sloppy bitch”, etc.) to express how they weren’t her type (and would point them out especially if they were my type—which is the exact opposite of following my lead.) As to the purported comments about women’s breast size, all you have to do is look at the relationships we’ve had to know what I think of small breasts. I guess I have invested a great deal of effort and affection on women who Mandy suggests I somehow think are “worthless”.

      On a more solemn note, just as misconstrued is the accusation that I am some sort of sexual predator, which is downright false. I have never forced myself on anyone or taken advantage of anyone.

      Mandy was not a passive bystander in our sex life. She was not a cult member and not naive and anyone who knew her will tell you she took orders from no-one. The only time Mandy ever saw me sexually involved with anyone was after she herself had already taken the lead in initiating it. She was extremely aggressive and sexually forward with women. She once interrupted my birthday party to tell everyone there—including her sister—that anyone who didn’t want to have sex needed to leave. I had no idea that was coming: I awkwardly stood at the door and shook hands with guests and received gifts and went “Uh, thanks for coming…” Lots of people saw this and things like it all the time. More than once we’d have someone over and I’d come back from the bathroom, or the store, to find Mandy making out with them—or I’d just hear her yell “Come fuck us” from around the corner.

      Mandy had an intense sex drive but, due to her illness, usually could physically only have sex once per day, so our sex life worked in a simple way: I’d be working at my desk or on the couch and Mandy would tap me on the shoulder or simply yell from bed— “Come fuck me”. She was the one who initiated sex—with me and with everyone else and everyone who knew us intimately has seen this happen. If Mandy ever didn’t want to have sex or couldn’t, all she had to do was not walk over to my desk or not yell at me from bed. I’d finish my work at 4am and crawl into bed. The most aggressive thing I had to say about the situation was “I don’t ever want to be one of those old couples that never has sex”.

      There were also long periods of time (months at least) where Mandy couldn’t have sex because of her illness; I sat and worked and tried to keep her healthy. This is confirmed by both Michelle and Charlotte. It makes no sense that she’s claiming I would threaten to “kick her out if she didn’t want to have sex”, I’d call it ridiculous considering all we’ve been through together but at this point it just makes me sad that she could even claim that, let alone believe it. As for the purported statement about having sex with a girl was like “raping a 12 year old”, there’s a reason why hearsay is excluded in courts – it’s unreliable.

      It’s unfortunate that effectively working in games required interacting with the sometimes volatile online gaming community. Pretty combative comments and threats appeared online against me, and even Mandy. Mandy voluntarily wrote and recommended responses to people online. Mandy’s letter refers to a Tumblr post she wrote and says that I wrote it, yet it’s her voice, her thoughts, her statement. Michelle will confirm that that Mandy wrote that herself and said at the time she worried people wouldn’t believe she wrote it. It wasn’t the only one she wrote.

      As for Hannah’s allegations – what I say now is not an excuse but to simply point out I had no idea and no clue about any of this. She said that I slapped her and choked her “out of the blue” and in public – this was during a day when Hannah and I were talking and making out in broad daylight near a wall and Hannah said something about BDSM and I said something like, “do you like to be choked and hit?” and she smiled and said, “yes”. If I’d known there was anything to apologize for I would’ve immediately. Nothing Hannah did then or in the many years after, ever suggested any discomfort with the situation or with me. In the years after, we flirted online and talked a lot about sex. Afterward we had sex many times whenever we were in the same city at the same time and she asked to get spanked and choked etc. Years later we invited her to live with us and she agreed—moving from another state. When she stayed with us I asked if she wanted the second bed or whether she’d just sleep in ours and she told me to throw away the extra bed. I never saw or heard a single complaint and it is tragic to only learn of this now.

      As for Jennifer’s allegations – Jennifer never saw me have sex with anyone she wasn’t also having sex with at the same time. Jennifer never watched me talk anyone into a bed that Jennifer wasn’t already in. We had many enthusiastically consensual encounters, including with one of her friends and many with Mandy. Jennifer lives in Europe and it’s hard to visit—and has obviously stayed in touch online with Mandy more than me. Before these allegations, the last I heard from Jennifer she asked me to get her a “Bernie for President” sticker and some collectors’ item sneakers for her partner—though I hadn’t seen her in ten years, there wasn’t a shadow of anything uncomfortable in our relationship until this.

      The only times Jennifer ever saw me in any kind of “kink spaces” or “BDSM” situations were:

      -Jennifer took me to a nearly-deserted sex club where her friend worked the first time I went to Berlin. I played chess with some guy and we left.
      -Jennifer met Mandy and me at a sex club for the Berlin Porn Festival—Mandy and I left early because it was too smoky and Mandy has asthma.
      -Jennifer asked me to spank her when we had sex. So I did—she didn’t complain.
      When Jennifer and I had sex with other women, in all cases nobody complained and I spent time with the other women for years afterward and we talked and laughed about these encounters afterward. There was nothing remotely BDSM-y going on with any of them.
      As for Viv… I never bought her breast implants. Mandy did, and I was not happy about it because it was a lot of money to splash out on someone we’d only known for a few months. Mandy’s signature is on the payment. I never “forced” Viv to move in with us from another state – she got a job in LA and Mandy asked if she wanted to stay with us. How could I force her to move? She had lots of other friends in LA and chose to move into our house, and stay in our bed rather than the couch, even though at the time we had a big living room. These things didn’t happen the way Viv describes them, but I understand: it was a break-up, there were hard feelings.

      Mandy published her attack with the obvious intent to hurt me and turn people away from me. Looking at it from the inside, it just hurts, but looking from the outside, it’s another one of her unpredictable outbursts, this time an attack on me…; broadcasting lies about me; formulating a smear campaign in an effort to cause me pain… years after we separated. She always loved that Courtney Love line “Some day you will ache like I ache.”

      I gave Mandy everything I could and tried to show her every way I knew how much I loved and adored her. If I didn’t love her I wish she’d told me sooner. I gave up everything for that “not-love”. I gave up a good portion of my life, time and effort for her and, even now, I still don’t regret it because the woman I knew then deserved it. This new Mandy hasn’t ever talked to me: the last texts I have from her are basically amicable ones about picking up her stuff, and she said she wasn’t angry, just had to move on.

      Even though she obviously wants me to suffer and cause me pain, I still hope things work out for her. I hope her illness is under control, I hope she feels loved by someone, I hope she finds peace, and I am sorry if she feels that I caused her any pain. All I ever wanted was for her to be happy. She was very sick, but I tried my best to build a world for her to be happy in.

      One last thing: I don’t have anything to hide about Mandy, Jennifer, Hannah or Viv—if any of our friends have concerns, feel free to get in touch. I can clarify anything.


      See Bro, how articulate I am? Spread the word. There was nothing even remote-ly Manson-esque about me or my little cult.

      • February 14, 2019 7:27 am

        Shannon Applecline? This is youi snt it. Ill have you know she wrote those reddit messages herself. Her thoughts. Her ideas.Her words. We just left the account open that had your name on it so thats how they went out then we had to fuck again so I didnt correct it until too late

    • February 16, 2019 1:21 am

      It’s up to a third post by now, slowly building momentum but inexorable, a thresher of counter-testimony that will bury all voices of dissent.

  45. Kentishly Kent permalink
    February 14, 2019 1:40 am

    Tao is unemployed again, the smell of Zak’s blood has dragged YDIS out of His torpour, and all the faithful are flocking to the altar. Let me take this opportunity to inform you that I have moved my practice to Plymouth :

    • BACLF permalink
      February 14, 2019 2:39 am

      Just ply mouth… that’s Kent, alright!

  46. February 14, 2019 5:52 am

    Fave line: “She always loved that Courtney Love line ‘Some day you will ache like I ache.'” So mournful. So wounded. Said from such a lonely height, atop his cross.

    • February 14, 2019 7:10 am

      We are both big Martin Amis fans you might not know that or even know who he is. I guess she forgot about that part

      If your dazzled by my brilliant defense theres a $50 slot open on the patron now. Charlotte needs more tits and I told Mike at the beginning this KS thing was going to be a bad idea. He shouldve listened to me

    • Little Snow Giant Dick permalink
      February 14, 2019 9:35 am

      “As for the purported statement about having sex with a girl was like “raping a 12 year old”, there’s a reason why hearsay is excluded in courts – it’s unreliable.”

      In other words: yeah I said it, but there’s no other witnesses or proof to say that I did! Nah! Nah! Nah! Nah! Nah!

      • February 14, 2019 9:38 am

        Michelle saw the hole Mandy kicked in the door to our apartment that made us lose our security deposit. And right after that Mandy’s leg came off at the knee. Just snapped right off because thats how her bones are. Pookie you shoud have known not to kick holes in doors with your swet little bird wheelchair bones.

        You also should have known better than to try to punch me in the eye for my racist comments

    • February 14, 2019 10:43 am

      Magnificent, inhuman only in its perfection, its flawless appeal. No sign of distress, no tremble in his hand. He is composed, measured, eternally untouched. A perfect mixture of disappointment, pathos, courageous resignation and subtle thrusts, like the thrust through the shield. A true Dunyain. War is intellect. Wheels within wheels. Easily his greatest work.

  47. February 14, 2019 7:44 am

    Like just about everyone (or so it seems), I grabbed a copy of the special edition of Dungeons & Dragons: Art & Arcana. I may do a full review of the book at some point, but, to be honest, I mostly bought it for the reproduction of the 1975 version of Gary Gygax’s Tomb of Horrors (and Alan Lucien’s Tomb of Ra-Hotep, which inspired it), which was played at the very Origins in Baltimore, Maryland.

    It’s fascinating to see all the similarities and differences between the ’75 version and the 1978 TSR module. A difference I noticed is the Origins version does not include the elephantine juggernaut that is one of the most infamously cruel traps in a dungeon infamous for its cruelty.

    In pondering this, a thought occurred to me: there’s also a juggernaut of a very similar sort on the first level of M.A.R. Barker’s Jakállan Underworld. While there’s no way to know for sure if Gary borrowed the concept from Tékumel, it’s nevertheless interesting that the ’75 Origins tournament version, which is clearly an evolution of Alan Lucien’s original, does not have the juggernaut, whereas the later TSR version does.

    Assuming – and it’s a big assumption –that the juggernaut was inspired by Barker’s, the time frame makes sense. I doubt that Gygax would have seen the Jakállan Underworld by the summer of 1975. Assuming he ever saw it – or heard reports of it from either Barker or people in the Twin Cities with whom he had contact – it makes more sense to me that it’d be after Origins in 1975.

    But this is all a wild surmise without any evidence.

    • February 15, 2019 9:31 am

      To the subject at hand, one such Zak “Sabbath” Smith. I’m almost certain that he is, in fact, a bastard. I do disapprove of bastards. He also refused to *contribute* any artwork for the legendary megadungeon Dwimmermount.

      When I read that he threatened to kill a woman if she produced a bastard, I must say that I had a new found respect for him. A fleeting respect. He remains a bastard, lairing in his filthy den of iniquity. I’m almost certain that his mental problems are the result of venereal disease. Syphilis does such things to a person’s brain. We all know that it, and many other sorts of V.D. are rife among pornography actors and actresses.

      Those of you who wish to express you disgust at this bastard’s continuing presence, I encourage you to show it by purchasing a copy of Dwimmermount, the ACKs version. You’ll support DrivethruRPG, which will not do business with the bastard anymore. You’ll support Autarch, owned by that upstanding man, Alex Macris. I’m certain that he disapproves of bastards too. You’ll support me. You’ll also encourage me to proceed with my plans to set up a Patreon account dedicated to funding the development and publication of “Return To Dwimmermount”. A 20 dollar pledge will get you access to my inner thoughts as I methodically outline the module over the course of several years.

  48. Satine Phoenix failed her friend Mandy permalink
    February 14, 2019 9:46 am

    Grim Jim responds to the controversy while The Blob tries to get at him from behind, and somebody in the next room blasts death metal from a cheap Jap radio.

  49. February 14, 2019 10:14 am

    Blair has stuffed cotton in his ears and lashed himself to the prow of the ship, shouting so as not to hear the siren’s song:

    • Aos permalink
      February 14, 2019 1:23 pm

      That’s just overflow from a fucking massive shunning that’s going down on Gplus.

  50. Captain Kirks DickBlood permalink
    February 14, 2019 11:12 am

    Reverse Victim and Offender

    His pleas are more from a manipulative sociopaths playbook than a lawyers. I think he got basic advice over the phone (probably dad’s lawyer); don’t hit back too hard, play the victim, perhaps pipe up mildly about your own abuse, name check wimmen who probably won’t speak out against you. but it’s all Zak in the end. He’s currently gathering a defense portfolio to fight back solidly. Affirmations, testimonies, hard copies. Maybe a cost analysis of what he paid out of pocket for Mandy’s treatments. The prescriptions tattoos are the most compelling, but also represent a certain crazed notion of possession of another persons life. “This means 4ever.”

    Happy Valentines Day!

  51. February 14, 2019 1:13 pm

    There is stillness on the field. An army of men, from all the corners of the world, has gathered around the Black Fortress to lay waste to the Titan Zak. The ground trembles beneath their feet. Leading the van come Knights in White, resplendent in their rainbow-cloaks, trembling in their snow-white mail, their crippled queen urging them on, her handmaidens, dainty in gifted silk braiding her hair. Next come brave OSRmen, with sunken eyes and slumped shoulders, who have served the beast for years. Two men in the Titan’s own heraldry lead them, weapons bought with a Titan’s gold, eyes still moist with spent tears, traitors both. On the left flank come the detractors, those knights in tarnished mail and rotting hide, among them inbred warriors of Balance, soldiers of Law and Crimson-clad berserkers seeking war for wars sake. They have come to kill a Titan.

    The wind blows across empty bulwarks. No soldier is fool enough to man the ramparts of the Black Fortress. It does not matter, he faces them alone. Were it a thousand, or million times their number, it would make no difference. With imperial disdain, he gazes down from the walls of the Black Fortress at the vulgar host arrayed before him. He is unmoved.

    “For the Princess!” A chaotic clamouring erupts from the slavering horde. “Death to the defiler!” “Justice for the Princess!”

    They do it for justice. They war for rage, and morals, and a woman’s heart. They war for shame, and fear, and greed and hatred and envy. They are a hundred thousand against one, a hundred thousand little threads bound up in a single noose.

    He steps forward, crossing the moat with a single step. He faces them unmoved, proud, like Lucifer before the Celestial Court, his hands spread in a posture of both challenge and benevolence. He is golden, alabaster perfection, his kindly face understanding, welcoming. He is garbed in purple robes and golden light. Only his eyes are hard, like obsidean. Depths in which men drown.

    Missiles begin to rain down on him from the host, turning to gas against the Aegis, a gift of the God Mearls, and leaving not a single mark. He is unmoved.


    His voice is clarion and thunderclap, whisper and melody. Some of the men arrayed against him weep with fear or adoration. Others tremble as they see him approach, the height of twenty men. The war cries stifle.


    He is incensed now, enraged with wounded pride, and so magnificent is his fury that the very sun wraps itself in cloud for fear of outshining such brilliance. He raises his hand and casts and thunder strikes through their ranks, laying waste to a hundred in an eye blink. The horde reels.

    Aaron the White, who is called Samurai, spits as he gets up, his ugly face maimed with molten flesh. He gives the charge, for knowledge that in the Blood of the Titan, all sins can be washed away. “FORWARD! FOR THE PRINCESS AND THE KNIGHTS OF THE OSR!”

    They charge, a disorganized rabble, gaining momentum like an avalanche, breaking around his ankles like a tidal wave. He is unmoved.


    His left arm sweeps down, scything through their ranks, splintering spears and shields, reaping a harvest of men. Their blades shatter on his unmarked flesh. Their charge falters before his relentless advance. Horses and men are wrapped together in a tidal wave of broken bones and mangled flesh.


    Incandescent spears of light radiate out from his eyes, turning all before him into torches. He grabs an amazon from among their ranks, examining her leisurely whilst men hew at his ankles like lumberjacks. “SOME DAY,” he says kindly, crushing her in his fist till she pops like an overripe grape and red ruin runs down his perfect fist, “YOU WILL ACHE LIKE I ACHE.”

    The first arrow touches him when he is a tenth of the way to the princess. A well-forged tool, from the house of Hite, draws a miniscule furrow of red down his fine-boned cheek. It appears the God Mearls has withdrawn his Aegis. For a second he seems to hesitate, but it is only a momentary stillness, an illusion, a trick of the light. He is unmoved.


    More arrows are falling now, chipping away at his golden perfection, swords carving furrows and a new color of blood, blue, mangles with the red and black. He wades in, his fists crumpling metal and caving in ribcage with blows like meteor-strikes.

    Now from the side come the two traitors, one helmet shaped like a duck’s bill, one garbed in flowing armor of corroded Iron. Stalking from the side, their weapons from the Titan’s forges, they know his weakness, he has taught them well. “I denounce thee Traitor,” says the Billeted One, and stabs the Titan in his side, piercing flesh and bone. The Metal One lifts a great rock from the soil [1] and casts it at the Titan’s face. The Titan staggers, and men sweep over him like a swarm of rats, engulfing him in a blanket of a thousand stabbing, jagged knives.


    There is hope…


    There is despair.


    Rising from the tide like Aphrodite from the Sea he flings men in all directions of the wind. He gazes upon them with imperial disdain, searching for the woman who raised this storm against him. When sees her there is no change in his expression. Stuart and his Princess flee in terror at his fury.

    On a hill, the fallen king of the OSR looks down upon his erstwhile God. He is leaner now, his armor hangs from him like a display stand. His armies, few in number but willing, await his command. King James is silent, and looks as though he has awakened from a dream. “What orders Sire?” they ask. He says nothing, only shaking his head. “What orders?” A single tear runs down his cheek.

    On the field, the horde is undiminished, though ten thousand lie dead on the field. Zak raises his fist and brings it down on the ground, splitting the earth, scattering men in all directions. One of them weathers the shockwave. It is Chenier, garbed in the armor of the Black Fortress. Though enemy blades have been stalled a thousand times by Zak’s hand, his drives in his spear, like all the rest. A thing called Peterson haunts his dreams.


    He is unmoved, possessed of a terrifying density. Juxtaposed against his golden form men seem permeable like fog. He wades through the army, undaunted, as confident of victory as he was when he set out, and were he not slowing down, were his blows not tardy and were he not bleeding from a million cuts, one would have believed his words the truth and the world a lie. But he falters, finally vulnerable. The princess watches his fall, one cannot tell what she truly thinks. Perhaps she is glad, perhaps she is sad. Who can say.

    He begins to keel over slowly, knees buckling like vast hinges, blood-stained hands now stretched for balance. Like some primordial oak, like the very Tree of Life he topples, quaking the ground. Men are thrown up and down as though the ground were a tablecloth that is wrenched from them.


    Men swarm over him. It is no war now, but butchery. A thousand tiny knives, chipping away at his golden face, his alabaster skin. Some cackle with sick glee, others weep as they kill their protector. Their god. They are drenched in his blood, turned azure against the twilight.

    His last words are no different from his first.


    The chopping continues. Some men turn away from home, their duty done, their arms weary. Others hew on, their skin covered in azure gore, their eyes spread open wide. Hewing and hacking and sawing. ABSOLUTION! they cry, chopping at his flesh. ABSOLUTION! they turn towards the empty sky. FORGIVE US OUR TRESPASSES! they shriek, devouring his flesh, ripping at his innards like dogs. WE HAVE SLAIN THE SUPREME EVIL! WE HAVE WASHED OURSELVES IN ITS BLOOD. WIPE AWAY OUR SINS! WE ARE PURE NOW!





    The chopping continues long into the night. There is no one to answer their prayers.


    In a tiny hall on a hill in the Nether Lande, a prince perches on a ramshackle throne, a single leg dangling over an armrest, sharpening a blade in solemn contemplation. A retainer perches over, questioning. “What if he were innocent sire?”

    A prince only smiles. “It would have made no difference.”

    [1] For in those days men had the blood of heroes and could perform great feats of strength

    • February 14, 2019 1:55 pm

      I am Shannon Appelcline and I’m the guy who ends up writing these histories. Gird thyself for the verdict of my inexorable revenge.

    • Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
      February 14, 2019 3:09 pm

      I wouldn’t call him a titan, merely a midge in a nation of mites. Funny, this news hasn’t even made a blip in larger nerd circles than Reddit and the OSR blogosphere.

    • February 14, 2019 3:42 pm

      For the OSR? I think drama-wise he was the big dog in Lotfp, the big guy, with “real” media credit and some connections. Followers, social media etc. It was on reddit right?

      • Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
        February 14, 2019 4:25 pm

        The OSR is just a tiny community in the tiny RPG community. I regularly check out a variety of SFF sites, and this kerfuffle doesn’t even rate a mention.

      • Timotheus permalink
        February 14, 2019 5:10 pm

        Yeah, even his good buddy China Mieville forgot to disavow him.

      • Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
        February 14, 2019 6:38 pm

        Mieville had his own ‘taking advantage of naive fangirls’ scandal a few years back. He was actually the original inspiration of my ‘joke woke bloke’ line.

    • Let me tell you about my character permalink
      February 14, 2019 7:03 pm


  52. February 14, 2019 3:05 pm

    One more thing, Zak. Now that you are down, I am going to stand on that sad little bird chest of yours and piss into your whiny, screeching little bitch mouth.


    Paybacks, Zak. As much a bitch as you are.

  53. Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
    February 14, 2019 3:24 pm

    It was like I was some big hatred in his life, and he was one of any number of people banned from RPGnet in 2013, and one of several who unsuccessfully tried to go over the heads of the mods to get me to let them back in.

    • Timotheus permalink
      February 14, 2019 5:08 pm

      That has to be the hardest hit to Zak. Having it rubbed in his face that he is just one of a throng of gadflies.

  54. February 14, 2019 3:24 pm

    I believe lovely, lovely estrogen!

    That’s all I got.


  55. Let me tell you about my character permalink
    February 14, 2019 11:54 pm

    Can anyone read the “for backers only” updates on Zak’s Kickstarter?

    • Vancianmagic permalink
      February 15, 2019 6:23 am

      Oh man, even when some girl is supporting Zak, he still comes of as vicious creep. Over on his updated announcement, one of his roommates says he tried to lure her into making porno’s with him and tried to manipluate her again by telling her she couldn’t be on his D&D show unless she was a sex worker herself.

      Zak, you vicious, horrific, bastard. Trying to get woman into the pornography is as low as convincing them to try heroin or becoming a prostitute. You used people in every way you possibly could think of either sexually, finaciality, or mentialy. I really hope more people will look behind this persona you created and understand how much a danger you are.

      • My 14-year-old self, circa 1985 permalink
        February 15, 2019 8:04 am

        “Of course honey you have to suck my dick first if you want to play in my campaign. That’s how D&D works !”

      • Tipper permalink
        February 15, 2019 8:05 am

        Bad, bad pornography!

      • Hehaw permalink
        February 15, 2019 8:55 am

  56. Hehaw permalink
    February 15, 2019 8:53 am

    • February 16, 2019 3:35 pm

      We are getting there. Still recommending popular movie-shots of women being abused like Jack Nicholson in the Shining juxtaposed against recognisable quotes from his apology letter.

      • FEAR OF THE UNBLOWN permalink
        February 17, 2019 4:12 pm

        Last Tango in Hollywood

  57. Captain Kirks Dick Blood permalink
    February 15, 2019 9:39 am

    These skanks are as dumb as fucking bricks. Readily admitting how they got sucked into charismatic peoples lives may as well be saying “baaaaaah” like a goddamn sheep. How would anybody expect that they noticed anything?

    Every one of them were attracted to these tattooed vermin because their dinner times growing up were like the Rodney Dangerfield scene in Natural Born Killers. Some will eventually mature and realize they were idiots hanging out with scum, but a few will maintain the Stockholm syndrome for the creeps. Patty Hearst got raped in a closet but soon was aiming rifles for the same shitheads. You see it again and again.

    Goddamn all these people are fucking slime.

  58. Lamentations of Gary Gygax’s e permalink
    February 15, 2019 11:29 am

    Ding ding ding! Patreon down to $207 a month. Zpastic is winning! Alas he still has 65?faithful hoping one day to play whatever the fuck it is Zpastic calls D&D. $2584 annually? I don’t think that’s enough to support his unfaltering crank habit.
    Please dig deep Zpastic needs more crank so he can make more suck poopetz to defend himself!

    • February 15, 2019 4:21 pm

      Fuck my worst prediction came thru. That means his apology worked to the point people actually resubscribed, which was always going to be a possibility. The titan rises anew. Immortal Zak.

      • Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
        February 15, 2019 4:40 pm

        There’s always the possibility that he kicked in his own money to make it look like he wasn’t in a free fall/death spiral.

      • February 15, 2019 11:49 pm

        Yeah its weird how his subscription numbers keep falling but the money keeps rising. 61 at 196 a month now. Half of the pre-Mandy kurfuffle.

      • Fake Woke White Wolf permalink
        February 16, 2019 12:04 am

        As long as he has one odd sock in the shit box, there will be fresh accounts lining up to support him online.

  59. Captain Kirks Dick Blood permalink
    February 15, 2019 12:08 pm

    20 years ago in a Tijuana oddity shop an old beaner sold me a magical camera that lets me make take photos of alternate timelines. Behold what might have been had Zak not embraced the skeeve and if Mandy’s dad and uncles weren’t super-horny mega-molesters:

    • FEAR OF THE UNBLOWN permalink
      February 15, 2019 5:01 pm

      I suppose Zak would be a ginger in at least one alternate timeline.

      Now take a picture from the timeline where Zak has to give BJs to dirty old men just to pay rent and his tuition at Scrap Princess’s Art Academy.

  60. go fuck yourself permalink
    February 15, 2019 12:53 pm

    I love to seeing SJW fags eat their own. Hope to see his suicide soon and many other liberal faggots kill themselves off in the future.

    • Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
      February 15, 2019 2:30 pm

      Bless your pointy little head, you sound like one of those QAnon idiots.

    • Timotheus permalink
      February 15, 2019 8:18 pm

      I remember when the random trolls that showed up here could actually form a coherent argument based on the accused’s words and deeds rather than the pearl-clutching “SJWs looked at my butt” faggotry.

  61. I'm Pissing Caltrops permalink
    February 15, 2019 4:39 pm

    Shithead’s sister-wives who are coming out of the woodwork to defend him don’t seem to be doing much good. I think most folks, save for the crusaders like wundergeek or the rubberneckers like us, have moved on. Most folks seem to be done with talking about the whole affair.

    If Mandy is a victimhood-seeking attention-whore, why has she kept a low profile for 2 years? If she’s so sick she can’t even run, let alone have sex more than once a day, how does she kick hard enough to destroy a door? We’re all supposed to believe that Mandy is an aggressive sex-crazed maniac and poor little shithead is a guy who just had to go along with it? Remember when porn guy James Deen was accused of rape and abuse and a several women came forth to defend him yet shithead pilloried him? I think his hashtag was “we believe our druid” or somesuch.

    The other thing to remember is that the world of porn is rife with confused boundaries between abuse/love/rape/etc. Anyone ever read the book by John Holmes’ teenage girlfriend? Pretty much explains everything.

  62. I'm Pissing Caltrops permalink
    February 15, 2019 5:08 pm

    Remember when everyone was standing with Stoya over the James Deen thing?

    dndwithpornstars blogspot com/2015/11/speedy-tree-maze.html

    Shoe. Meet other foot.

  63. February 15, 2019 5:50 pm

    No no no nono
    Zak buddy do not do this to me with close to 1300 unsold copies of FB&M in the warehouse
    Running dangerously out of stock on everything else
    I need the spice to pay the printer

  64. The RPG Pundit permalink
    February 15, 2019 6:01 pm

    I just wanted to say that all women are lying whores and every rape claim is a filthy lie to get the white race down.
    Except for this one.

  65. February 15, 2019 6:12 pm

    People with privilege – white dudes, people who weren’t directly harmed by Zak. Now is when you need to pick up the torch. Keep holding @Gen_Con ‘s feet to the fire, because after a week of this shit, Zak’s victims and marginalized folks are fucking exhausted. #AbuseIsNotAGame

  66. BACLF permalink
    February 15, 2019 10:03 pm

    Forget Zak, forget our petty differences for a while and remember the reason why we play… to prepare us to cope with the death traps lurking for us in abandoned crack houses…

    Always, ALWAYS, have a ten foot pole handy!

  67. February 16, 2019 8:39 am

    My Interactions With Zak
    When I told people I was thinking about starting a D&D blog, several people warned me about Zak Sabbath (DnD With Pornstars). Nothing clear, nothing concrete, but the equivalent of “don’t get into an elevator alone with this guy” or “watch your drink” or “there’s something off about him”.

    Zak is one of the main reasons I keep my real life completely separate from my RPG work. I’m so glad I set that up from day one.

    I joined G+ at Arnold K (Goblin Punch)’s invitation and puttered around, blogging away. Zak turned up in a couple of comment sections, being charming and helpful and welcoming and all that, but we didn’t really have an interaction until Sept. 2017.

    You can read the full thread here. I’d asked for advice on heist modules. Someone recommended Blades in the Dark. Zak replied immediately with “never promote Evil Hat”, and I replied with.

    “If I added the disclaimer “only post modules published by people n feuding, potentially feuding, offended by, or offending Zak S.”… I’m not sure how many responses I’d get. Ever. To anything.”

    Not the most mature response, but by this point I’d read enough to start to get a sense of how Zak worked. I thought he was an internet tough guy; an alpha nerd with a Faberge ego who’d pick a fight with the sky on a cloudy day. And I had nothing to lose by calling him on it. I don’t mind losing fights. If things went nuclear I could delete everything and walk away.

    Because there were rumours. Call out Zak and “They” would start harassing you. “They” never turned up, but Zak did. We had a discussion in a private thread (which you can read here). In 6 posts total, he told me everything I needed to know. Please, read it.

    Some of his arguments were logical. Some were appeals to my good nature. But they all lead to the same place. Arguing with Zak is like fighting smoke. You stop believing yourself. You lose track of your own principles, your own views, until eventually all that’s left is Zak. The only way to make him go away was to make him think he won.

    After that discussion, I could never see Zak as anything other than a liar, a manipulator, and a hypocrite; a Nixonian troll with a silver tongue and an Enemies List. I showed the conversation to a few people over the years. Some saw what I saw. Some didn’t. Most just weren’t sure.

    And despite “knowing what Zak was”, despite calling him out once or twice, what Mandy, Hannah, Jessica, and Vivka described shocked me.

    If someone I trust had come to me on Feb 9th and told me, in point form, all the things in Mandy’s post, I wouldn’t have believed them. It’s just too awful, too cartoonishly evil. Sure, Zak was a blowhard and an old-school intellectual troll but he wasn’t a monster.

    But by Feb 10th there could be no doubt.

    I was fooled. We were all fooled. Just because I poked fun at Zak doesn’t mean I had any better idea of what was under the shell than anyone else. The revelations surprised and frightened me.

    Now if you’ll excuse me, I must return to my massive colonization of “Veins of the Earth”. StuPat will come around to liking me again. I just know it. I just have to work harder.

  68. Satine Phoenix failed her friend Mandy permalink
    February 16, 2019 9:49 am

    But…but…she punched me!

    zak/Langouste Yesterday at 8:31 AM
    well they made a choice weighing principal vs their own best interest and so did ithis is important stuffimagine you were falsely accused at this level of heinousness–you’d see it as important, I assume
    Cavegirl Yesterday at 8:34 AM
    If I were accused of this sort of thing my response would have been very different but I suspect, based on previous discussions, we are operating from very different starting axioms so I’m not sure it’s worth going into that.
    zak/Langouste Yesterday at 8:37 AM
    i got accused on a sunday, vetted and hired a lawyer by monday night and did what everyone i know who’s a public figure and every lawyer i talked to said and what i thought was right: put out a public statement
    Cavegirl Yesterday at 8:38 AM
    I don’t doubt that
    my public statement would have looked very different to yours. As I say, different starting axioms.
    zak/Langouste Yesterday at 8:39 AM
    well what are your different axioms?
    Cavegirl Yesterday at 8:47 AM
    to briefly summarize, I consider myself to be fallible and that the hurt of others is normally genuine. Combined with a different approach to, you know, morality in general (recall our differences RE: desirable outcomes in online debates, in which i was something of a bleeding hearted softie).My response would probably start from the foundation that there was something I’d done to warrant this, and that my perceptions of events were likely biased. So, my statement would largely consist of an acknowledgement of the hurt felt by the accuser and my part in that. I would do my best to make a sincere apology and offer to make ammends. My assumption would be that even if I hadn’t intended to cause harm or realised that I was doing so, i still did so without meaning to, and that it would be my responsibility to fix that to the best of my ability.Fundamentally, even if I privately felt that I was in the right, I would do everything in my power to fix what I could, and place doing right by those hurt above my own needs.These things are difficult. No doubt it would be deeply unpleasant for me. But I hold myself to certain standards (both as a result of past traumas and as a matter of my faith) and that informs how I respond to these things.
    zak/Langouste Yesterday at 8:48 AM
    Then you’d go to jail.Like: if you don’t defend yourself you’d go to jail. Bc the things Mandy said are jail things
    her hurt could be real but the accusations aren’t and im not going to pretend they are just to be nice
    Cavegirl Yesterday at 8:50 AM
    I would hope that things could be repaired enough that my accusers didn’t press charges. Are yours doing so?If I ended up in jail, though, I’d be there with my conscience as clean as I could manage.
    zak/Langouste Yesterday at 8:50 AM
    @Cavegirl attempts at repair have been attempted, she won’t talk to the accused. like most accusers on the internetalso: my sympathy for viral outrage mongers left a looooooong time ago. i loved her but seriously no
    Cavegirl Yesterday at 8:55 AM
    well then. I don’t know what advice I can give you except patience and signs of contrition. I’ll be honest, when I saw this come up it absolutely gutted me. I’m an abuse survivor. I held you in high esteem. I have been a mess because of all this.I am literally crying as I type this. It isn’t easy and it can’t be for you either.I had hoped that the statement from you were were waiting for would… well, would reflect the values I stated earlier. Contrition, willingness to accept responsibility, etc. I’m not sure there’s much to be gained from continuing this conversation at this point.
    zak/Langouste Yesterday at 8:57 AM
    i don’t think it’s an act of good faith to be contrite toward a person who is attacking me. Someone punches you, you don’t go “Im sorry”. And that’ s not a metaphor: she fucking punched me. Its in the statement.
    Cavegirl Yesterday at 8:58 AM
    as I say. This is where you and I differ. Operating from different assumptions.
    zak/Langouste Yesterday at 8:59 AMso if someone punched you int he face you’d go “im sorry”
    Cavegirl Yesterday at 9:01 AM
    I mean probably yeah. That’d be my intention, at least. It’s the standard I’d want to hold myself to.
    zak/Langouste Yesterday at 9:01 AM
    ok, to me, that standard leads to this person punching everyone
    Cavegirl Yesterday at 9:02 AMAs I say, different base assumptions.
    zak/Langouste Yesterday at 9:03 AM
    do you not see how that leads to everyone getting punched? i mean: that’s storygames.

    Willingness to admit fault? Pacifism? Contrition? Mercy? That’s bad. That’s storygames.
    I think that tells you everything you need to know.

    • Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
      February 16, 2019 7:12 pm

      i got accused on a sunday, vetted and hired a lawyer by monday night and did what everyone i know who’s a public figure and every lawyer i talked to said and what i thought was right: put out a public statement

      Christ, he’s a dumbasss, you hire the lawyer to put out the statement, you don’t do it yourself.

      I was never a fan, how the fuck did he ever convince anyone that he was smart?

      • Timotheus permalink
        February 16, 2019 8:21 pm

        All of us here called out his lack of talent from day one.

        But the fact that the Top Men in the blOwSR ooohed and awwwed over vorneheim and rapeland is indicative of a couple of things.

        Despite the dudes in the blOwSR congratulating themselves on how creative they are, the truth is otherwise. Dimmermount was a milestone. So was Arrows of Shittra. Both suck, of course, as is well-documented. The bar was pretty low, his haphazard products contrasted well, I guess, and people gushed, like the chief propagandist of the blOwSR, Matt Finch.

        And, though it is cruel to keep pointing it out, gamers liked Zak because of the tit factor. And he marketed the hell out of it, and they were drawn to it.

      • Arneson's Spectre permalink
        February 16, 2019 10:05 pm

        No respectable attorney who vetted that statement would have ever advised him to publish that statement. Clearly there is no lawyer.

      • Hehaw permalink
        February 17, 2019 9:03 am

        It’s absolutely laughable how panicked Zattaka has become. From ” Mr. Too cool-for-you” to this babbling, crybaby, idiot who’s losing his shit by the second because he doesn’t have a clue as to what to do.

        Yeah, Zak, I would be more than a little nervous. You were involved in with a woman who has serious mental and physical problems, and many of the things you’ve done and admitted too will be a three-course dinner for the pit bull lawyer she retains to go after your ass.

        Your legacy is over, your career is over, and when this ordeal is over, you will be too.

  69. I'm Pissing Caltrops permalink
    February 16, 2019 12:14 pm

    “she fucking punched me” says a man who used said punching woman’s fragility as a shield. Despite having a disease that cripples her to the point that violent or quick movements could cause her internal organs to become detached, she’s able to break doors and punch a grown man.

    • February 16, 2019 1:22 pm

      I thought he said something racist and the surge of righteousness strengthened my arm beyond the usual noodle slap. You know how a single mom can lift a car off her kids? Racism is my adrenaline ant strength.

      • Chinychingchang permalink
        February 16, 2019 2:34 pm

        He must be shitting in his pants thinking he could possibly go to jail. 😆😂

        Somewhere in Hollywood. In a filthy, shitbox of an apartment. A man with half a haircut, bad tattoos, and who inks the same squiggly lines over or uses his penis to make ends meet, begins to cry…

      • Franky Panky permalink
        February 16, 2019 4:40 pm

        Don’t be too certain of that. Zak has the tools to do well in jail. Sure, he’ll take it in the ass, and in the mouth, quite a bit at first, but eventually he will transform his fellow inmates into his little Trilbys. I’m not talking about the hat style either.

        Patreon stands at 60 patrons and $195.

      • I'm Pissing Caltrops permalink
        February 16, 2019 8:11 pm

        Somewhere in Helsinki in a tiny shitbox appartment full of unsold copies of Isle of the Unknown, a man and a half with long curly locks is gnawing his finernails, wondering if his cash cow will ever provide again…

      • Timotheus permalink
        February 16, 2019 8:24 pm

        Ha! Or licking his chops, knowing his fanbase as he does. He’s said he’d publish Varg’s BS before, so he’ll stick with The Attack for the transgressiveness it gives his brand.

      • February 16, 2019 8:34 pm

        Please someone buy
        As of now I have 205 R&PL 322 Vornheim 1275 FB&M in the warehouse
        Nearly €50000 of unsold product
        DTRPG won’t take it
        please buy

      • Landifarne permalink
        February 17, 2019 9:56 am

        Holy fuck, I should totally buy a dozen of each book, Uber it up to Zak’s place and pay him a few bucks to sign them all. They’ll be worth double their price in thirty years!

        Hmm…maybe he’ll take Lyft coupons instead.

  70. Captain Kirks Dick Blood permalink
    February 16, 2019 3:53 pm

    That Zak ever made any kind of money in pornography is a laugh. Anybody who does a bit of research will see its pretty much hype. His online filmographies (that he has no control over) list maybe 8 films, mostly some niche burlesque crap (burlesque in general was huge for a little while some years ago) or porn punk where they fucked on rusty engine blocks. And at least two of those were non-sex “punk #3” roles. Look at a major porn site like Xhamster and it looks like lots of Mandy Morbid stuff with Zak in a couple, but you soon see its like the same 2 or 3 home movies cut into many bits.

    I think that Zako got a handful of small roles in these Burlesque and punk things because of his skeevy circle of whores and punk fag hairdressers he knew. When his gaming blog and persona were forming, he shot some cheap home crap to get clips on the free porn sites to “prove” his star status.

    I actually knew somebody some years ago who did make-up and she was desperate so a college friend of hers got her a couple gigs at these big gang bang shoots that were popular. She said she saw a couple guys who were pointed out to her as dudes who in the 90’s and early 2000’s did a ton of porn. Big productions, gonzo scenes, and what not. She saw them leave in crappy tore-up old cars including a years old beat up Geo. So porn don’t pay for guys. I heard a couple hundred is typical for a non-big name veteran doing a mid-size porn production scene,

    Zak has stated “I have sex for money.” Yeah, toss that couple hundy on the pile daddy sent you. It’s clear he got laid a lot; he’s a Svengali in scenes chock-packed with lost whores. But that he is any true kind of porn “star” is the biggest joke in gaming. Next to Alexis being some kind of gaming “master” that is.

  71. OA, BD permalink
    February 16, 2019 7:02 pm

    Oscar Anderson Likes this.

  72. Bigby's Affirmative Consent Lubed Fist permalink
    February 16, 2019 7:38 pm

    LexiTao calls it like it is:

    Clearly, whatever he was offering, despite being a garbage human being down to his boots, it was what a lot of players and pundits considered respectable, “quality” content, worthy of praise, distribution and appreciation …

    … that being the cold, bitter, brutal reality that most people just will not face: that Zak probably had his head up his ass the whole time, and that many, many people just would not SEE it.


    Welcome. Welcome to what a few of us started to say on the first day. Welcome to the argument that hundreds of ordinary, common, non-moderator bulletin board contributors recognized in the first hundred words of the first twattle that Zak spewed. “This guy is full of shit. Why do you like him?”

    • Timotheus permalink
      February 16, 2019 8:37 pm

      Probably the first time in Lexy’s life he could actually, truthfully say “I told you so.”

    • Arneson's Spectre permalink
      February 16, 2019 10:11 pm

      Big deal. Sexy Lexy also told us “Water is wet.”

      In painful, dull, excruciating, count the hexes on the fucking map overly verbose detail.

    • Franky Panky permalink
      February 16, 2019 11:22 pm

      How’s that Patreon working out for you Professor of D&D Lexy? 48 Patrons? Ah, but $412 month. Is that in Canadian currency? I note that you are threatening to create a podcast. Just what the we need, the sound of your voice with that appalling Canadian accent. The one that sounds like the speaker is severely brain damaged. Wait, that’s every Canadian accent.

      That post… Is Lexy planning a power grab? Muscling his way into the diyD&D guru space that Zak filled or at least squatted in?

    • Captain Kirks Dick Blood permalink
      February 17, 2019 12:53 pm

      Hate to say it, but I’m on team Lexi with this one (shudder).

  73. Arneson's Spectre permalink
    February 17, 2019 5:05 am

    So none of the Zak faithful have come to his defense not counting the ones who are clearly Zak’s sockpuppets anyway. It must be painfully clear now to Zak that his followers were only there for the lovely ladies of (scab punk) porn.

    A reluctant tip of the hat to Venger Ass Nasty Satanist. He’s a giant semi-literate doofus, but at least he had the good sense to know what side his bread is buttered on by cutting ties and throwing under the bus so quickly.

  74. Captain Kirks Dick Blood permalink
    February 17, 2019 1:12 pm

    Zak Trash at his most Zakkish:

    02-18-2017, 09:09 PM

    I want to clarify here, because I think it’s important: He didn’t threaten my children, that I’m aware of. The phone call that I received came from a cheap prepaid phone purchased in the city he lives, but millions do. The phone call directly referenced him, and things he’s specifically obsessed with. Around that time, I received an email rerouted through the United Arab Emirates which featured a photo of my child’s school and a number of very specific threats. I don’t know who did that, but it referenced things he’s said about me which were not true, and at the time, he lived some 20~ minutes from me.

    I know every time he brings me up, because I tend to wake up to a stream of threats and very disturbing anonymous messages.

    I don’t know how much of this is done directly. I know he’s told his fans to “destroy” people and “get at them” before. This is all well-documented – and I’m really, really tired of trying to validate my abuse. And, once it came out how his fans were threatening my kids, he put up a sarcastic, joking post to his fans telling them to stop threatening my children. I’ll note, he told them to stop threatening my children. Which as far as I’m concerned is a direct admission that he endorses the attacks against me. Just not my kids.

    For the past seven or so years, he’s screenshotted and saved everything I say online, even things I’ve said in private groups, in spite of thorough blocks. I’ve had to aggressively block people suspected of being his sock puppets. At one time, a friend of mine being harassed by him actually had an associate who is a plagiarism expert identify a few of his sock puppet accounts who write exactly like him.

    And right now, he’s very, very obviously impersonating a member of the RPG community, a mod on RPG net. He’s been impersonating this RPG net mod for over a year, constantly talking himself up. He’s slipped up in a way that makes it painfully transparent (he first posted under the false account on Reddit, referencing Zak as “I” from the impersonating account. Then, almost immediately, he deleted the impersonating post. He reposted the exact same thing under his personal account. When called on it, he said it wasn’t him and it didn’t happen. When logs were shown, his story changed and now he’s saying it isn’t him, but someone that shares a computer with him, who has been impersonating this community figure for over a year to defend him and talk him up. And who writes with an almost laughably similar style to him.

    As well, in his most recent game, he named a murderous trans vampire who asks people about social justice issues, and murders them if they answer insufficiently, after a noted trans RPG developer who his fans have hounded and harassed before. Why did they harass and hound her? Because during her last Kickstarter, she removed a stretch goal by someone who went on the limb defending his harassment campaigns.

    I think the idea that I can “talk out my issues in a mature way” is actually a thing I can do here. My issue is that he stalks me. He saves everything I say online. His fans threaten me and my family. I have tried for the better part of a decade to get him to leave me the fuck alone, but he absolutely under no circumstances will not. This isn’t some thing where I can sit down with a cup of tea and meet him half way. And it’s not just about me. He’s abused a number of figures in the RPG community. He’s currently impersonating someone who banned him on a role playing game forum. Let that sink in for a second. FOR OVER A YEAR, HE’S IMPERSONATED SOMEONE WHO BANNED HIM ON A PRETENDY FUN TIME GAME FORUM. This is not some rational disagreement. He’s a stalker. He’s an abuser. I’m not going to kindly ask him to pretty please stop abusing me and everyone else he’s abusing. Because I have before. It didn’t work. It won’t work.

    David A Hill Jr
    Freelance Writer
    Independent Game Designer

    • February 17, 2019 2:50 pm

      Whoah that is some fucked up shit if that checks out. Do we have an archived link of Zak telling his minions to stop going after the dude’s children?

      • Captain Kirks Dick Blood permalink
        February 17, 2019 3:49 pm

        02-18-2017, 09:09 PM

        Originally posted by The young man in the cafe View Post

        Thing is… Zak S has straight up threatened David’s kids before, amoung other horrid things. David is well past the point where him forgiving Zak is possible.

        Seriously, if David is your favorite writer, then maybe ask him about what is going on.
        This is probably stupid. But whatever.

        I want to clarify here, because I think it’s important: He didn’t threaten my children, that I’m aware of. The phone call that I received came from a cheap prepaid phone purchased in the city he lives, but millions do. The phone call directly referenced him, and things he’s specifically obsessed with. Around that time, I received an email rerouted through the United Arab Emirates which featured a photo of my child’s school and a number of very specific threats. I don’t know who did that, but it referenced things he’s said about me which were not true, and at the time, he lived some 20~ minutes from me.

        I know every time he brings me up, because I tend to wake up to a stream of threats and very disturbing anonymous messages.

        I don’t know how much of this is done directly. I know he’s told his fans to “destroy” people and “get at them” before. This is all well-documented – and I’m really, really tired of trying to validate my abuse. And, once it came out how his fans were threatening my kids, he put up a sarcastic, joking post to his fans telling them to stop threatening my children. I’ll note, he told them to stop threatening my children. Which as far as I’m concerned is a direct admission that he endorses the attacks against me. Just not my kids.

        For the past seven or so years, he’s screenshotted and saved everything I say online, even things I’ve said in private groups, in spite of thorough blocks. I’ve had to aggressively block people suspected of being his sock puppets. At one time, a friend of mine being harassed by him actually had an associate who is a plagiarism expert identify a few of his sock puppet accounts who write exactly like him.

        Dunno about you, but all this shit makes me miss the mild walk-into-walls lunacy of Bloodymage’s gaming life. The world needs more Blooey’s and less Zak Smith’s.

        I wonder if Zak’s dad finally knows the extent of not just Zak’s nonsense over the years, but the circles he runs in. Skeevy tattooed vermin are one thing, but I can see pops saying something like “all this is about motherfucking Dungeons and Dragons? WTF???”

        It’s possible “Daddy Sabbath” has no idea. Wasn’t his name and profession known? Maybe somebody needs to make sure he (and maybe co-workers/partners) need to know about Sonny boy.

      • bloodymage permalink
        February 17, 2019 4:03 pm

        This damn Yahoo toolbar is MY abuser!
        Sigh! 😦

      • February 17, 2019 4:16 pm

        My dads deets Are Known but in the past you people were unwilling ot dox relatives. What happens in DIY dungeon games stays in DIY dungeon games. Unless of course your me and David Hills kids need a good scare

    • I'm Pissing Caltrops permalink
      February 17, 2019 3:33 pm

      David Hill is a fucking joke. A shitty writer who produces shitty game content. He’s the type of idiot who writes a book that goes to press with tons of typos, terrible sentence structure, missing sentences and rules explanations that go nowhere. And no, this isn’t Zak. I just remember the first time a bought a book by Dave Hill and it was shit (some mecha game or whatever.) Called him out on it and he basically said “so what.” Nice quality control you dipshit.

      This whole affair has been replete with shitty people yelling about shitty people. Wish we could just shove Dave Hill, wundergeek, Zak and the rest of their rabid loyalists into a battle royale arena and watch the blood spray…


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